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I think long profiles are really interesting, but everytime I type something, I just think that its not coming out how I want to, or it just doesnt make sense to me half the time. I guess I can never express myself good enough. Anyway Im Szelin, I dont update here very often cos I don't want to be a bad example (ha-ha I know right) if you know me Im @ dearestblank.lj instead, pictures will be here every now and then.

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Friday, February 29, 2008
I love you for the last time


This is a edited post.

I feel like shit now.
please promise to take care of yourself.
No choc or ice cream when you got sore throat.
please no training if your wrist hurts or anything.
Dont kill yourself on court or killing others.
and remember control your mood.
stay the way you are happy go lucky type as you said.
I'll be happy to see you happy.
thanks for everything.
encouragements and being my pillar of strength
I have to give up cos I've ben waiting too long
and I know you cant possibly change back.
everytime I hold on to a little hope
but I fail again and again.
I'll still remember how you made me feel like Im in heaven.
you are the one the builds me up and tears me down.
just know I still have
the bear
the letters
the smses
the balloon
the memories
and love.
goodbye.
goodbye to 180307.
goodbye to love.
goodbye to those ily to death.
goodbye to you.
Its hard to get over you honey.
It hurts when I think about you.
I'm falling into memories of you,and things we used to do.
thanks for being with me for 11 months 17 days.
11th Oct 07 and 1st March 08 these date just breaks me down.
now 18th of every months hold memories.
Its not going to be a happy day anymore.
knowing that your not mine, knowing that.
Everytime I read through all the letters and smses, i smile.
but now its tears that replace all those smiles.
remember when I asked all good things come to an end, will we?
You answered I hope not.
But now yes it did.
whenever I see or hear 18 I think of you.
whenever I see people in your uni I think of you.
whatever that has something got to do with you, its makes me think of you.
yknow how much it hurts when I've to say goodbye.
I still worry about you, dont be stubborn anymore alrights.
I look at pictures and stop to just take a look at you.
I never thought it'll hurt me so much after you're gone.
I still miss you.
I love you to death for the last time.
It always hurts me to see you hurt.
God, must this be the end?
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