I think long profiles are really interesting, but everytime I type something, I just think that its not coming out how I want to, or it just doesnt make sense to me half the time. I guess I can never express myself good enough. Anyway Im Szelin, I dont update here very often cos I don't want to be a bad example (ha-ha I know right) if you know me Im @ dearestblank.lj instead, pictures will be here every now and then.

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kay i look hor-ree-bal

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back from NSL,
I was drenched, luo tang ji hahahaha
those people with me were quite entertaining,
ainsley jiwon KC shaoxuan, funny shit,
met love at tp then went allllllllll the way to jurong east, waited for ains and jiwon,
told them to get on the green line train, but they were too slow and missed it-.-
so today marlins vs vipers and sharks vs stingrays
we smuggled food into the stadium, haha.
then after everything we left for the mrt station, but its was raining damn hevily, okay not very but not drizzling kind either, maybe heavy drizzle.
we had 5 people and an umbrella,
ainsleyBimbo hogged the umbrella,
so I just got my hoods on, and walk quickly out to the main road,
KC was being a man, hahahaha.
after we went to the main road, no cab so we continue walking till we saw a cab,
we paid 2.80 for the fare,
yes, we got onto the cab for not even a minute-.-
so after that they headed for supper while I rushed home.
I hope I dont catch a cold, I've got game on Monday(!)
kay I shall sleep early so that i wont be late tmr,
its not early anymore actually,
I still need to post some peektures,

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im back from training, and im really sleepy,
actually I've been back for quite awhile,
I was just distracted by cooking mama on DS,
The family came back with another DS, idk how many DS games and 2 WII games,
my uncle needed shopping therapy-.-
training was rather slack, but ... still irritated me quite abit.
ran with twin after that,
slow jog, manage 5 rounds, hope your feeling better! (:
running is good, it've been awhile since I run, and let everything go, today was good enough.
then had recovery food then off to bathe, then off home.
when we were at the traffic light waiting for the green man to come on,
while I was on the phone,
apparently ainsley jiwon ann and swie en was day dreaming, we stood there, till it turned red again, hahaha, pretty funny,
kay Im going off for NSL,
I hope I dont get eyebags tmr ):

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Kay I have more time to blog more details of today,
Lit was pretty funny,
"you eggs" hahaha, Lucy escaped the punishment in math which was pretty funny too,
Had practical today, I hope I did well.
Life/Live session was great, tolerance is wisdom
praise and worship was much better than the previous ones,
good to end term 1 life/live session with.
had dental, and the criss cross the rubber bands,
I just realised it after I went to meet janelle and gf for awhile in bishan.
Joan's brother was pretty outgoing (like Joan) hahaha.
Joan is so the opposite of me, compare my cupboard and her cupboard man, everything is everywhere la.
If you don't mind, I'd love to pack for you(: hahaha.
rushed at reach home at about 7.30
today's a happy day(:
tmr training at ccab, home then NSL at jurong,

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WHO IN THE WORLD TRAINS AT 7.15AM, TRAINING IS GETTING EARLIER AND EARLIER

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Joan's place now,
going off soon,
my eyes damn itchy,
dental wasnt as bad, change to pink.
joan smack me cos i rubbed my eyes-.-
beat her up everyone HAHA
training tmr ccab, train my hearts out.
kay im off for now,
today's a happy day(:

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it was the worst night ever yesterday.
today's better.
sometimes i really want to sleep for days and never wake up.

Its okay to doubt once in awhile

St.marg's your doing this,

I saw a rainbow
rainbow= god's promise.
we'll do it on monday,
it was the prettiest rainbow I ever seen maybe,
it was so huge, i saw it at ccab and still can see it at novena.
today was disappointment, Ms lum was probably saying that we improved so that we wont break down at that point of time,
if I am playing like this, I think amk deserve being in semis more than us.
how I actually gave up in the 4th quarter,
I just didnt run as hard, or had more control, or wtv else,
my.play.was.screwed.

1) I was crowding the space.
2) lobs were not accurate.
3) I.was.jogging.
4) I didnt run for loose balls.

so what do I want, my legs felt so heavy, I couldnt catch my breath,
this desire in me to play as well as before is like dying.
so what if we're better than raffles, we didnt play well, we gave up.
lose means lose
it just hit me so hard, that I.am.giving.up, its not me
Yes a few tips, no interceptions, thousands of contact and obstruction.
It was going fine until the second quarter,
Kay, im just not satisfied with the 10 goals we gave away,
only if i was fitter
I couldnt last 4 quarters today, like I did on Monday.
I was just tired, I lost the mentality, lost the stamina.
lost it all

thanks to everyone that came, tho we probably only brought disappointment.
it was half hearted play. trust us, we'll make sure we work our asses off on sat, just for semis on Monday, we own this.

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the morning didnt start out nice,
after elearning, I was suppose to go out, then my aunt make a big fuss out of it,
I left the house crying, oh wtv,
met happy buddy at peace centre,
no more cold storage, its a food court now,
walked up, saw a couple of teachers,
we waved, but they only recognise us a few seconds later.
Is that suppose to be good or bad, hahaha.
left to meet dione and rachel and went straight to watch the show,
He's just not that into you
It was okay, but comedy is not really my thing
Joan and Dione were being such sweeties in the cinema,
RIGHT RACHEL, HAHAHA
b&j after that then rushed home,
I was only 5 min late, and she msged me saying that I took her words she said just now as nonsense, I really didnt want to go home.
tmr's rgs game, we have cheerleaders tmr, HAHA,
your best st.margs!

Its 7.44
screw edulearn-.- but at least theres no school

Happy 6th love(:
This is so cliche but,
Love is just a word till someone you meet gives it a meaning
you showed me love

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its pissing me off, LOAD LA

Labels: love

I cant stop complaining how tired I am, hahaha

its been awhile since I step out of court and actually thought that I played my best.
I played all I could, fight till the end,
but somehow it just wasnt up to standard.
I was so tired, I felt like dying, but look at the determined faces, and how the others keep going, it never fails to make me work even harder, since I cant find a reason why I should give up while the others is working so hard, and when the whistle blows and after a few seconds of silent,
we broke into those sweaty bunch of girls, screaming, jumping around, even breaking out into tears of joy. victory
It was 30-29 to us, it was awesome, seeing all the overjoyed faces, hugging each other so tightly,
I love the team(:
Mr Prata after game, and teamtalk and playing with ice, twin and I was on laughing gas,
home with jamie and nevine,
Im sorry twin, yknow my curfew): I still WURVE you. hahahaha.
the bangla at novena was sucha cheekopek,
he looked at my skirt and "tsk tsk tsk tsk"
go and die.
Im so tired after the game, the falls and banging into the wall was worth it(:

thanks for coming down, love you(:

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LJ

My camera died on me that night,
but im so lazy to charge it,
but i want it with me.

I kinda spend the whole afternoon talking to that birthday girl.
not really but most of the time I was online, she was being sucha sweety(:
tmr's game,
what colour jersey?
never felt this much of determination in me before,
negative as I may be, once Im on there, I've got nothing to say
run your hearts out, scream your lungs our

Labels: Happy Birthday(:

Training today, I dont really wish to blog about it,
but I was glad I didnt feel as tired, as I would be.
met gf, then off to lunch, good to see her again(:
home, seafood harvest for dinner,
damn full,
bye.

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good that its end of the week(:
lover's finally back(:
Im damn beat from the match just now,
Im running a slight fever, I was friggin cold, but everyone said I was damn hot,
I got chased home by Ms Chng,
She gave money to Grace to send me home in a cab cab,
Idiot came along,
she wanted me to go straight to the docs, so she pass me another 50 bucks, (again, I feel so baddd)
But none of the 3 clinics was open, so Idiot sent me home,
thanks to both of you(:
had a great sleepover yesterday,
We did role play for Macbeth,
Twin wants to webcam she's hurrying me, thats all for now, bye.

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Never had I came to this state before, when you get tired even after 1 quarter of play,
10 min seems like the max I could go,
I never sit out in a game, just cos Im tired, never.
Today was the first, very much disappointed with myself,
All along, I have been a go-for-every-ball player, and being tired, never really affect my play,
Pass few days, training and games, tire me out, everyone said I looked pale,
Ms Lum didn’t want me to continue the game today,
Even though I know by half time the gap was 38 goals,
But I also know that the rest are tired,
There’s no reason why I should be sitting out there,
JUST COS IM TIRED.
I didn’t feel the drive to do well,
I felt the complacency,
It just wasn’t me,
Everyone seems to be getting better, Im just behind,
Lets just say, I have deproved, end of story,
Our draw’s out,
Crescent, AMK, Raffles,
Tough grouping, but wtv, we’re going to make it,
Legs, its not the time to fail me, don’t you stop me from running.
I hope my fingers get better, its swollen and purple at the joint.
Haze please go away, your making it difficult to breathe.
Sun, please me kind, your affecting my play.
Szelin, those shall not affect you, work harder than before, everyone got high hopes on you, don’t let them down.



SMSS vs First TP: 71-1

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Im no where between the few of you.

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(tho this appeared alot of times, since its the only photo I have with you, but...)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWIN! (:
Your probably one of those that know how I feel, since we gone through simliar situations,
the endless encouragements and advice when Im down, late nights we use to have, talking about everything, we've yet to beat 3.33am, and we havent have a successful guitar lesson through webcam yet (HAHA) enjoy today! love you twin!

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Its a b-o-r-i-n-g dayyy,
when joan to the rescue~ hahaha,
headed down to town with my aunt to shop for my shoes, but I cant find any,
wasted trip,
its quiet at home, the 2 kids are out at their friend's party,
for th first time, Im glad that there's school tmr,

come back soon):

dont blame her for telling us, she's just bring a good friend. And I pretty much dislike people that bring in their family members to their friendship problems, yada yada. you can tell us how sorry you are, and then you go blame others for telling us, cos we're angry at you now. no point la seriously. I dont really care if you say fuck you to my friend what so ever, but in this case your in the wrong so back off. I didnt really bother about this thang until I saw that conversation. Your too bad I know Kiana longer than I know you, and I trust her, I've always trust her. And your probably getting abit too horny to be tolerated, we dont really like that. think about it

Labels: Happy Birthday(:

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm
I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

On Wednesday.

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what a fantabulous vday-.-
training in the morning was cocked, okay not so much, but it annoys the hell out of me when, you try to teach your junior something, and she dont respond to you, and she just keep repeating her mistake, and you just constantly keep telling her the same thing, till you want to just pluck her head out, sorry I dont have the patience, and I do scolding business. And I dont see the motivation in some of you, we're just trying to help, if yall just want to cut us off, go ahead.
kay enough of the angsty, since today is vday(:
lover still never fail to make my day tho she's so far away( that lovely(:
after having a talk with Ms Lum and the rest, went off the bathe,
then headed to Novena with Jamie Tricia Sylvia and Iris,
had lunch, Fish & Co,
then went bra searching, which failed terribly, should have gone to queensway,
whose brilliant idea was it to go novena HUH
hahaha, yeah, then jamie and tricia had to go, so the rest of us walk around Novena Velocity and Square 2, until we were tired and decided to go home,
Iris came over while Sylvia went homeee,
played world tour, then she help me tune my guitar,
then slack around, then farewell, HAHA.
Risa text me, and I just realise it was her since I dont have her number in Joan's phone,
but Im so sorry, babe, should have asked me earlier.
Im going to bathe again, I feel so sticky,

Im still alive and kickin, come back soon):

Labels: miss you, Training.

Labels: Happy Vday(:

It had ben a pretty long dayyy,
but valentines present kept rolling in(:
even during Mrs Juan's class, hahaha, someone shouted "SzeLin! Love letter!"
kay not funny for yall, but its funny for me la, wtf
Come to think of it actually my class is a fun bunch of people, better than last year, but ofc if odds were with me probably much more fun,
Sonia gave Mrs Juan the smalllll flower, and her reaction was pretty funny.
So yes that Yuanyuan got a pretty board, which she was worrying about-.-
and her pretty helium balloon at home, I'd steal it if I could, hahaha,
suprisingly gf passed her present for me to yuanyuan before she left, how sweet(: thanks, love you(
training in the afternoon was tiring,
Sarah was crazy, running damn fast for the 3 rounds, I could hardly keep up,
during the game, C div was correcting some movement, which they tried like over 30 times I bet, and since, shannon was also part of it and Im her defender, I've to do it too,
I got pretty pissed, after a few times of telling her what to do, and she finally got it, jasmine couldnt get it, and the sun was like how hot pleaseee, kay wtv, lets not talk about it.
They're playing RG on tuesday, they do have a chance, and they shall win them(:
next week's pretty busy which is good, since love is away,
Monday- Game. (First TP)
Tuesday- Support Juniors.
Wednesday- Training.
Thursday- (wtv)
Friday- Game
Saturday- Training.
received our jerseys, got to tuck in cos its long, might be wearing skirt,
the white is kinda translucent, so we decided on a colour bra to wear, hahaha,
training tmr in school.
Game on Wed was pretty screwed up, but it ended off well,
score 43-9
headed to town before that since we had early dismissal, ate, shop, left.
thursday, went to meet sonia to pass her the gift, sat on the train for an hour straight, and I didnt have lunch, anything for love(: HAHA.
I got to see saratha soon, my ankle's kinda screwed it hurts every now and then,
aite, bye world, I miss that slacker.

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thanks Kiana and Joanne for the note and cookie
thanks Joan for the note
thanks Lynnette for the note
thanks Lynette for the note
thanks Dione for the photos
thanks Isabelle for the cupcake
thanks Jamie for the spooooon
thanks Ivie for the note
thanks Vans for the photo
thanks Rachel for the note
thanks Clara for the lollipop
thanks idk who for the sweet on my table

Joan and Dione gives killer hugs.

Labels: game, Training.

Monday went by fastttt,
did the thing with Joan after school, it looks pretty nice(;
We spent like the whole afternoon on it, plus like at night we did it on our own, so more than half a day that is, so it'll sure be pretty witty(:
cny is officially over, there goes ang pao collection, I didnt even go tampines this year):
sad sad, less ang paos that means.
Today, went to school early just to pass them the board for Kiana's birthday,
they still complain too small, I also spent quite alot of time on that lor): tsk tsk.
then during recess, while running down to the canteen, cos Mrs Tan always let us down late,
and they didnt know how to light up the candles-.- so i had to light it, then sung birthday song all, Ivie's baking is still as good as ever,
Yeah she was quite suprised, another success belated supriseeee:D
had PW today rather boring, left straight to car-lang
where else can we go but klp in kallang,
so headed there spent time with gf left home.
tmr's game+total defence+early dismissal at 10, (((:
and my maid is coming back tmr, as in not the useless one, the one that was here for 8 years, yeah she's coming back, Im quite happy Im free from all the housework,
Im suppose to be typing out the Lit stuff, hahaha, Im always using it as an excuse to come online, blog a little, hahaha.
Im a sleepy kid today, and Im glad that most of the glue came out after I bathe today(:
its like how uncomfortable,
I jerked my ankle, no good... but its better now,
Rosy Png off to your house next week okayyyy(:
alright back to work, bye world.

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Paris is pretty(:

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