I think long profiles are really interesting, but everytime I type something, I just think that its not coming out how I want to, or it just doesnt make sense to me half the time. I guess I can never express myself good enough. Anyway Im Szelin, I dont update here very often cos I don't want to be a bad example (ha-ha I know right) if you know me Im @ dearestblank.lj instead, pictures will be here every now and then.

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Ended with a win,
it was awesome, will I not miss BDIV09):
ride back was crazy, really enjoyable.
Im so tired now, Joan is going to leave me alone tmr, cos of her comp. >:/
Got to collect my PR tmr as well,
I have to continue with me work, post again someday if I get to touch the com during the week.
I am damn annoyed cos I cant finish my work, I can cry to the paper,
Nothing should come down on me

T, never keep anything from her, let her know what she should. and its okay to be mean and times, dont slide back, you've got someone else, rmb that

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So yes we're out of top 4,
all netball goals of this year not met, but ssp game was good, esp the last quarter.
but you see I just don't like the fact its over for this year):
last game on monday, it'll be good, it have to be a wow game, like what sarah said, its the las one already.
Commendation is finally o-v-e-r
no more commendation practices, thank god.
it was a torture to my feet today, all the way from 11 to 5.30 or so.
new uniform on monday, I still prefer yknow normal uniform with polka dot collar, hahaha
after that dinner with a bunch of people,
mos burger with trina, and the uncle was so cuteeee, he was quite old, with this pair of adorable specs, he called me "St.Margaret"
his name tag stated 'MS chow' trina say "Chao" he said "Chow" hahaha adorable much, made me laugh like kerayzee. fiddled with katherine dslr (:
Im going to spend tmr doing my work, so over the weekends Im freeeee.
lovee the topshop top:/
kay now pictures,

Hizz, I miss you):

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do or die
it was very heartbreaking,
happy birthday nevine, Im sorry, it wasnt a good birthday from us.
I dont understand ms chng actually, but I'll try.
I didnt do my part, it was screwed up,
sorry.

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I felt so helpless just now, when I heard that the game was postponed.
I will not forgive myself if we dont make it to top 4 cos of that game, so after a bad cry,
Ms Lum called my aunt and the ICA, I manage to change my appointment,
and did I not feel the team's love, hahaha.
watched juniors game, it was damn close, they won by 1.
went to ate after that, then went home.
Im pretty tired no idea why also, today also never play.
the the sun was damn hot.
kay Im going to bed, im physically tired also,
cant want for school tmr actually, omg yuanyuan it was damn funny.
take care of dalida and Ah ben!
have to bring them out soon soon(:

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Game today vs st.nicks
Won 30-11 I wasn't even pissed at all la
It was sucha normal slacky play
" C please cool down your play, do not play so rough"
Now that was pissing, freeeeeeak
class had their 2.4 today, they look so tired I want to break my ankle and not
run, fastest was 13 plus haiiii
Sarah wanted to leave me behind at kallang and not bathe, but managed to persuade her
Next round we'll be meeting
Dunman, sports school, nanhua
don't break the winning streak st.Margs
We are going all the way, not impossible
season is ending soon
Then soon sec 4s will be gone, so nostalgic)':
whoever that left her bottle at kallang please claim it from me tmr

miss you damn alot

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Victory today, 27-14
it was a tough match, but we came strong.
I was dead tired, and couldnt breathe at the end,
not heartburn trina-.-
my head feels damn heavy now, I should be having an early night,
but I have got coursework to do-.-
Im so sore and stiff everywhere,
havent had a win in awhile, definitely feel good.
Team talk, was funny, laughing all the way.
Busy week,
Tuesday: Commendation practice/training
Wednesday: Commendation practice/ Eng remedial
Thursday: Game.
Friday: Training?/watch junior's game
I need timeeeeee.
alright I got to get back to work, then get some rest.

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losing is sucha bitch
We have to win the next 2 to get into round 2.
Its a must, thats my only goal left for netball this year,
Im out of 17s, as expected, but I didnt expect to get so disappointed either.
but looking at the list, wtv shant say anything, whats done is done,
they are better than me so be it.
I defeated myself today, it wasnt that tough, but we gave away the first quarter.
I couldnt even absorb what Jamie was trying to tell me during the break, I totally just stared at her, without listening, wtf.
We did a comeback, caught up but gave it away again.
did well? forget it, 1 quarter of doing well, strike it off.
so many defeats this year,
wake up call
training tmr kallang 5 to 7

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2 defeat this week.
disappointment after disappointment, injury should stop being the excuse, so dont tell me its cos im injured and is still recovering. Dont say I did well when I didnt, its most hated.
I was only back in the 1st quarter of cedar's game, the others are all screwed.
IJ game, dont have to comment, it was beyond horrible.
the worst thing that could happen is feeling so giddy in the last few minutes of the game,
then you start running around in circles.
then you become the attention after the game, cos your lying on the court, trying to get blood to your head_._
then captain starts crying, explains the disappointment, then the teacher speak to you,
go home with swollen eyes and red nose.
tell yourself you can do it the next game, then fail again. screw it.
get over it, do better.

juniors were good, they beat ij by 1, they're off to finals,
I cant wait to play with them in sec 4,
But for now ms chng said cedar and us has got alot of potential,
so just work hard, and control passes,
sports day is next thursday, running for 200m and I havent go for any practice,
they said I dont need to go, but i forgot how tired it is to be running 200m, sprinting all the way,
I just know last year Anjali was so close to beating me,
kay enough of all these,
I feel so good, listening to Mrs Juan's class, tho she's pffft.
Jamie's partaye tmr, please dont rain, its going to be a blast.
i'll be having fun when someone have training, hahaha.
sunflowers are pretty stuff, yes? (:

ps: I got a couple of pictures, i'll upload it later or some other day

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I saw a rainbow
rainbow= god's promise.
we'll do it on monday,
it was the prettiest rainbow I ever seen maybe,
it was so huge, i saw it at ccab and still can see it at novena.
today was disappointment, Ms lum was probably saying that we improved so that we wont break down at that point of time,
if I am playing like this, I think amk deserve being in semis more than us.
how I actually gave up in the 4th quarter,
I just didnt run as hard, or had more control, or wtv else,
my.play.was.screwed.

1) I was crowding the space.
2) lobs were not accurate.
3) I.was.jogging.
4) I didnt run for loose balls.

so what do I want, my legs felt so heavy, I couldnt catch my breath,
this desire in me to play as well as before is like dying.
so what if we're better than raffles, we didnt play well, we gave up.
lose means lose
it just hit me so hard, that I.am.giving.up, its not me
Yes a few tips, no interceptions, thousands of contact and obstruction.
It was going fine until the second quarter,
Kay, im just not satisfied with the 10 goals we gave away,
only if i was fitter
I couldnt last 4 quarters today, like I did on Monday.
I was just tired, I lost the mentality, lost the stamina.
lost it all

thanks to everyone that came, tho we probably only brought disappointment.
it was half hearted play. trust us, we'll make sure we work our asses off on sat, just for semis on Monday, we own this.

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its been awhile since I step out of court and actually thought that I played my best.
I played all I could, fight till the end,
but somehow it just wasnt up to standard.
I was so tired, I felt like dying, but look at the determined faces, and how the others keep going, it never fails to make me work even harder, since I cant find a reason why I should give up while the others is working so hard, and when the whistle blows and after a few seconds of silent,
we broke into those sweaty bunch of girls, screaming, jumping around, even breaking out into tears of joy. victory
It was 30-29 to us, it was awesome, seeing all the overjoyed faces, hugging each other so tightly,
I love the team(:
Mr Prata after game, and teamtalk and playing with ice, twin and I was on laughing gas,
home with jamie and nevine,
Im sorry twin, yknow my curfew): I still WURVE you. hahahaha.
the bangla at novena was sucha cheekopek,
he looked at my skirt and "tsk tsk tsk tsk"
go and die.
Im so tired after the game, the falls and banging into the wall was worth it(:

thanks for coming down, love you(:

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good that its end of the week(:
lover's finally back(:
Im damn beat from the match just now,
Im running a slight fever, I was friggin cold, but everyone said I was damn hot,
I got chased home by Ms Chng,
She gave money to Grace to send me home in a cab cab,
Idiot came along,
she wanted me to go straight to the docs, so she pass me another 50 bucks, (again, I feel so baddd)
But none of the 3 clinics was open, so Idiot sent me home,
thanks to both of you(:
had a great sleepover yesterday,
We did role play for Macbeth,
Twin wants to webcam she's hurrying me, thats all for now, bye.

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Never had I came to this state before, when you get tired even after 1 quarter of play,
10 min seems like the max I could go,
I never sit out in a game, just cos Im tired, never.
Today was the first, very much disappointed with myself,
All along, I have been a go-for-every-ball player, and being tired, never really affect my play,
Pass few days, training and games, tire me out, everyone said I looked pale,
Ms Lum didn’t want me to continue the game today,
Even though I know by half time the gap was 38 goals,
But I also know that the rest are tired,
There’s no reason why I should be sitting out there,
JUST COS IM TIRED.
I didn’t feel the drive to do well,
I felt the complacency,
It just wasn’t me,
Everyone seems to be getting better, Im just behind,
Lets just say, I have deproved, end of story,
Our draw’s out,
Crescent, AMK, Raffles,
Tough grouping, but wtv, we’re going to make it,
Legs, its not the time to fail me, don’t you stop me from running.
I hope my fingers get better, its swollen and purple at the joint.
Haze please go away, your making it difficult to breathe.
Sun, please me kind, your affecting my play.
Szelin, those shall not affect you, work harder than before, everyone got high hopes on you, don’t let them down.



SMSS vs First TP: 71-1

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It had ben a pretty long dayyy,
but valentines present kept rolling in(:
even during Mrs Juan's class, hahaha, someone shouted "SzeLin! Love letter!"
kay not funny for yall, but its funny for me la, wtf
Come to think of it actually my class is a fun bunch of people, better than last year, but ofc if odds were with me probably much more fun,
Sonia gave Mrs Juan the smalllll flower, and her reaction was pretty funny.
So yes that Yuanyuan got a pretty board, which she was worrying about-.-
and her pretty helium balloon at home, I'd steal it if I could, hahaha,
suprisingly gf passed her present for me to yuanyuan before she left, how sweet(: thanks, love you(
training in the afternoon was tiring,
Sarah was crazy, running damn fast for the 3 rounds, I could hardly keep up,
during the game, C div was correcting some movement, which they tried like over 30 times I bet, and since, shannon was also part of it and Im her defender, I've to do it too,
I got pretty pissed, after a few times of telling her what to do, and she finally got it, jasmine couldnt get it, and the sun was like how hot pleaseee, kay wtv, lets not talk about it.
They're playing RG on tuesday, they do have a chance, and they shall win them(:
next week's pretty busy which is good, since love is away,
Monday- Game. (First TP)
Tuesday- Support Juniors.
Wednesday- Training.
Thursday- (wtv)
Friday- Game
Saturday- Training.
received our jerseys, got to tuck in cos its long, might be wearing skirt,
the white is kinda translucent, so we decided on a colour bra to wear, hahaha,
training tmr in school.
Game on Wed was pretty screwed up, but it ended off well,
score 43-9
headed to town before that since we had early dismissal, ate, shop, left.
thursday, went to meet sonia to pass her the gift, sat on the train for an hour straight, and I didnt have lunch, anything for love(: HAHA.
I got to see saratha soon, my ankle's kinda screwed it hurts every now and then,
aite, bye world, I miss that slacker.

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thanks Kiana and Joanne for the note and cookie
thanks Joan for the note
thanks Lynnette for the note
thanks Lynette for the note
thanks Dione for the photos
thanks Isabelle for the cupcake
thanks Jamie for the spooooon
thanks Ivie for the note
thanks Vans for the photo
thanks Rachel for the note
thanks Clara for the lollipop
thanks idk who for the sweet on my table

Joan and Dione gives killer hugs.

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I.am.doing.my.work.now.
24th and 25th we're having elearning= no school
next wed early dismissal, thanks to our seniors that did well in olvl last year.
but we got game-.-
i got to play 2 quarters today, well better than nothing, no pain no nothing,
yesterday watched jnrs match,
Mr prata-ed then home,
Izzie can I go your house tmr? ((:
friday training in school,
Sat at kallang (dont cancel on us again please)
I finally went to place order for my name tag,
"not very nice to have a prefect wearing a temporary name tag"
oh well, I better bring my thermometer tmr again, Idw to be standing,
oh yes after junior's game that day they were doing their work while I stoned (as usual)
then suddenly this bee came bzz bzz,
then it went into the can, then we covered the can obviously, then we were looking at it,
somehow it manage its way out, then cos we were so near, we screamed and jump back,
guess who had tears HAHA.
and then at the prata shop, I asked if there was prata bomb, and I never had intentions to eat,
so I asked the uncle "uncle is there prata bomb?"
and he said yes, then he wrote down, then i said no no no Idw, then he okayokay,
then in the end two prata bomb came, then we were like no no we didnt order,
he damn fierce said we ordered already, damn asshole, but I paid the price of 1 and they gave me 2, I threw the other one away "you must always rmb the kids in Africa" HAHA.
Im quite beat from just now, after the game ran 3 rounds, then teamtalk and all,
then it started raining, so thanks to Jamie's dad who sent us to the MRT stations(:
alright, Im going back to my work, bye world.

I miss you. Alot):

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long weeeeek,
had my first practical in HE, quite -.- but at least got food,
hahaha, and then went for physio again,
its recovering well,
tuesday went for juniors game, isit? isk not sure hahaha,
wednesday had a game, I was a spectator,
twin unfortunately injure herself too,
after game went Mr Prata then iris mum send me home, not exactly home but to novena,
so I went to get my ankle guard,
thursday, Im sure juniors had game,
kay anyway went down, it was close, vs amk,
I was like how nervous for them man,
shoot with iris, while the run, 3 rounds rest 3 rounds,
I asked Ms Lum if I could run her answer was "no way" hahaha
Friday CNY celebration, performance was good, better than last year's maybe,
I kinda forgot how last year's was,
after dismissal, had induction, I was dead tired, so I didnt enjoy it,
after everything went to nevine's house with trina jamie, and then tricia came later,
cooked and ate,
then we spend like 3/4 of the time taking peektures,
then after I watched abit of huse bunny, had to leave,
the rest stayed for dinner, peektures up at the next post,
I slept early yesterday, and woke up early today,
the amount of clothes I had to iron was kerayzeeeee,
I washed the shoes, iron the pile of clothes and washed the car today,
I hope she let me off for the rest of today,
I already didnt have time to eat lunch,
aite, byezx

Happy 5th love<3

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I miss running, jumping,training
and dying.

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