I think long profiles are really interesting, but everytime I type something, I just think that its not coming out how I want to, or it just doesnt make sense to me half the time. I guess I can never express myself good enough. Anyway Im Szelin, I dont update here very often cos I don't want to be a bad example (ha-ha I know right) if you know me Im @ dearestblank.lj instead, pictures will be here every now and then.

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My aunt is PMS-ing.
and Im the victim.
Thanks Dajie for returning my wallet and MP3(:

go go go find her love

SMSS - MGS: 42-11(?) respectively.
sorry stm I cant rmb the score.
estimated.
Morning I forgot to bring jersey.
Call this person that person sms this person that person.
In the end I have to ask my aunt to bring it for me.
kay den today went smoothly and all.
Xintian, cheers cheers.
We take you seriously alright buddaye(:
Dont emo emo very scary =x
left at 1 went to the office get my jersey.
and everything.
tricia trina jamie and their high school musical soundtrack-.-
hahaha.
anyway warm up and everything game started.
I guess it was more of excitement than anxiety.
today's performance was better than last week, although can be better.
seniors who went down thanks(:
oh right just saw true colours of someone someone.
rah, so irritating.
I shan't bitch or anything.
anyway I got jab my the WA, jab somemore la contact.
my arm was hurting/aching cannot exert force.
awesome or what?
tskkk.
Tmr's April fool.
I got plans(:
I shall be smarter tmr and not fall for any tricks(:
Have to call kiana later to discuss the gallery walk thingy.
Im tired.
Had my cold and warm water bath.
3 min 3 min,
hahaha, lmao.

Now I guess yknow why I hate lyrics so much,
they make me remember things im trying to forget.
I wna trip inside your head and hear the things you havent said,
before I give up waiting.
where'd you go I miss you so.

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot,
workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin',
at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing

"Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every
Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine,
I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you,
I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin',
at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing

"Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...I

want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin',
no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around,
and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back
I won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

morning.
I cooked breakfast,
I screwed up a omelette.
but the other one was okay, pretty pretty I guess.
anyway afternoon was boredom.
all I could do is listen to 98.7FM and laze around the house.
oh and I just realise the nominations for the netball thingy is out, redsports.
coolios.
LINK(:
anyway, nothing really happen today.
just a couple of shock from sarahjoykoh.
scare me if miss ow finds out right,
I'll be doom too, who knows the big mouth actually told miss ow about everyone that did it.
mine leave NO scar(:
I just told bilah we're in the same group.
we're both quite happy of the grouping(:
easy grouping mah.
hahahaha.
ah crap my aunt just off-ed the radio.
going out soon.
probably same place to TP for dinner.
Getting bored of TP like seriously.
oh yeah sarahjoykoh, dont getting kissing into my head.
hahahaha.
I cant believe it la you.
me too.
hahahaha.
yasira is baboon thats it(: not zebra.
Tmr match against MGS.
I hope I'll play better tmr.
quite scaredddd.
Im not hungry and I dont want to go out to eat.
I got forced to wear something that I dont want just because I bought it for new year and I did not wear it during new year.
Tube dress
eeeks.
I'll upload photos of JAMIE TAN if I have the time to later on after I come back home.
I BOMBED BIG TIME.
wait awhile.
I'll probably get the top up card tmr.
If I get my wallet back from dajie(:

Im staring at your face even when I close my eyes.

Yesterday
Fell asleep while waiting for the com-.-
anyway, game with canberra and missed Sci day.
awesome.
I screwed up the game.
but the score was 40-1 in the end to st.margs.
Draw's out.
310308- MGS
020408- St. Nicks
040408- SSS
Our grouping is a good one.
The other group has:
IJ TP, RGS, CGS and TKSS.
yeah so ours considered good.
after everything went home with nevine and Jamie.
Nevine you pms la like crazy.
and Jamie I bet the hot air was your fart hahahaha.
ohoh performed the NIKE shop guy today.
it didnt seem hilarious to them.
Jamie and I were still laughing.
yeah end of yesterday(:
Today
Jamie pick me up at my homie.
and den went kallang.
didnt have breakfast again):
anyway training started after watching 1 quarter of seniors game.
oh well.
team talked.
Nevine jacked Jamie.
hahahaha.
Me: eh take what bus take whats bus?
Jamie: If 31 come first then take 31 is 14 come first then take 14.
Me: 31 IS HERE JAMIE! RUN!
*starts running*
quite hilarious if you think about it.
then when I got up the bus.
tap EZlink already I was being kind to wait for nevine at yet she said go go go and push me.
Idk why I started laughing again and walk towards the seat like some idiot.
yeah went home did all my stuff,
den set off to meet Jamie at Novena.
den we took MRT all the way to woodlands.
den took 912 as told.
but then we were kinda lost.
and den this stupid uncle ion front of us keep looking at us.
Me: eh the uncle keep staring he stare at you den I look at him then he suddenly look at me den I look away.
Jamie: yah yah I saw him looking at you den he suddenly turn to me den I look away.
Den we took all the way back to woodlands waited for 912 again.
den aask the uncle if he goes to wtv place.
den he said oh the other side,
but elle said not to go to the other side.
so we decided to cab down.
and I swear the taxi driver is the most hilarious taxi driver ever.
I thought he was scary but he was nice(:
reached there met elle at basketball court.
Jamie and I were like uh?
we didnt know alot of people.
maybe just JET and Nat for jamie.
At least I know beverly tabitha and Zahirah.
played tennis badminton captains ball, den went to eat
after we ate den we went to this place with air con to sit.
took pictures, I'll post it jamie.
you and your unglam-ness.
hahahaha.
oh yeah once I was laughing so hard my head hit on the side of the sofa and denmy clip broke.
awesome rightt. hahahaha
And then we decided to go off and find elle and rest.
we didnt find elle but we found, nat zahirah and this other girl=x
oh yeah so we didnt really want to play but then zahirah said
"If you get the shot in I treat you bubble tea,"
so yeah 2 chances for Jamie and I.
I got it in for the 2nd try Jamie didnt get any,
SO ZAHIRAH YOU OWE ME BUBBLE TEA(:
yeah den started playing game,
and I was damn funny luh.
I was like rolling on the floor.
especially when Beverly fell backwards.
oh well I know its mean but she was laughing herself.
you should have seen the scene of her falling.
and Zahirah was like no rules no rules.
hahaha.
so yeah went high.
went down the cut the cake.
took peektures first.
yeah.
went up to elle's house.
truth or dare.
Got dared to kiss her dog.
I did it(:
loveable thing.
Jamie you lucky pok never get spinned
anyway the other daring stuff are prank call.
super funny.
after a while had to go down then sent some home.
Then only Jamie and I and the other girl left.
And and I left my wallet and MP3 with natalie.
oh no.
how am I suppose to sleep):
hahaha nvm I'll survive,
remember to bring on monday((:
then the girl have to leave after that.
so left with Jamie and I.
And and her dogs are gay la.
they hump each other.
gross.
especially the hot dog like doggy.
or sausage like.
wtv la.
Decided to watch a show but but but but,
my aunt called when the show started so I had to leave,
saddening thingy.
anyway I had fun fun fun today(:
thanks ELLE(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY((:
advance that is.
hahaha.
Im tired and I cant sleep sleep sleep.
how?
hahahaha.
to you.
I wont ask you to cheer up cos you probably wont.
I've been through those shit too so I know how it feels.
dont talk about suicides please. Your scaring me, seriously.
and yknow what alot of people cares uh.
I know you really want her to know how much its hurting you but cmon,
if you doesnt take the hint, no point.
stop letting her hurt you so much.
I know it easier said than done.
go get some sleep.
Tmr will be a better day, thats what I always hope for(:

It've been almost a month.
I try to keep myself with everything and anything.
but when I got nothing to do,
and thats when I think of you):
no matter what I do there's still part of you.
I blast the music, but the effing lyrics reminds me of what im trying to forget

1. Your status please.
} Single, not available.
2. How many hours do you sleep?
} Depends if I can sleep):
3.Do you own a laptop or cellphone?
} Yeah.
4 Where is your bf/gf?
} -
5.Last person you kissed?
} -
6. Have you been to the movie in last5 days?
} -
7.Last food that you ate?
} Dinner.
8. Your dream vacation?
} Paris
9.Have you been in love?
} Yeah.
10. Do you miss anyone right now?
} -
11. What are you listening to rightnow?
} Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis
12. Do you collect anything?
} Yeah.
13. Last time you took shower?
} Just now.
14. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
} Yeah.
15. Have you ever broken someone else's heart?
} Probably.
16. If you could go back in time andchange things, would you?
} Yeah, create a time machine please.
17. What's in your mind?
} keep bleeding bleeding in love.
18. How do you feel right now?
} PMS-y.
19. What was the last SMS you receive about?
} What to do about something?
20. Do you smoke?
} No thanks.
21. Usual first impression on you.
} Fierce.
22. Last person you talked to on thephone?
} Kiana.
23. What's yr answer in no.8?
} Paris.
24. Where's the best timee to eat icecream?
} Anytime.
25. What are you doing tomorrow?
} School Game
26. Were you a nerd in 5th grade?
} Noppes.
27. Have you ever been on Tv?
} A small bit.
28. Have you ever loved so much thatyou're willing to sacrifice your lifefor him/her?
} Probably.
29. 3 things about yourself?
} Stupid. 2 faced. emoish.
30. What's bothering you?
} -
31. What are you thinking abt?
} -
33. Best childhood memory :
} Tons(:
34. 5 of your biggest fears:
} Me. Heartbreaks. Gruesome sights.You. Nights.
35. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex's if they askedyou?
} -
36. Want to marry?
} -
37. To whom?
} -
38. Alaska or Hawaii?
} Hawaii
39.Do you love chocolates?
} Yeah please(:
40. Words for the day.
} Pick up the pieces put them together,amend my broken heart.

- means Idk or I just dont wna answer them.

3 free periods today.
no teacher.
We were suppose to do our basketball assignment today but oh well.
Kiana sat with me during science.
I swear we talked the whole way.
But Mr Goh didnt say anything.
Everytime he starts talking people starts talking.
Everytime he stop talking everyone stop talking and stare at him.
stop and stare(:
Im not used to talking to Lynette when she's in front of me.
hahaha.
kay anyway.
after school went down to kallang.
but saddeningly it rained.
Played the coin game and the tap game and the charge game.
hahahaha.
we released quite early.
so went PS with nevine and jamie.
Ate at long john's
suddenly we saw Sheela with 3 other guys.
said bye but then she came back again showing me one of the guy, cos he's my neighbour-.-
oh well jamie and nevine shared some hilarious stuff.
oh yeah.
so before we left nevine tok jamie's phone and jamie didnt know.
so when we were walking looking for elle's gift.
den nevine said she had to call her mum.
so she asked jamie to lend her, her phone.
den jamie found out her phone wasnt there.
so she started worrying.
while I was laughing non-stop cos of her reaction.
until I squat dow in the middle of PS.
same thing happened in the bus.
when we had to tap our EZlink.
jamie was like Oh no I cant find my wallet.
so den nevine and I started to worry for her.
Nevine at the background:" Get down now! get down now!"
damn funny like she could even get down now.
hahahahaha.
anyway we were like Jamie check again.
so she open her bag and I saw her wallet at the side-.-
kay anyway, after much of roaming Jamie and I decided to go Novena to get the gift instead,
met Trina Slyvia Iris Lynette at KFC there at PS that is.
den took the MRT to novena.
funny stuff happened in the MRT again.
Jamie made me embarrassed by telling Nevine this Canberra girl called me sexy-.-
den she laughed like crazy until she dropped the ball.
lols.
Mainly today I laughed alot.
you should see what happened at Novena.
we went into the Nike shop then suddenly the guy at the entrance did this,
*kneel down* Hey Guys.
I was like uh? Jamie walked away.
hahahaha.
Then when we went out of the shop Jamie and I started laughing like nobody's business.
Wanted to get bikini for elle.
HAHAHAHAHA.
but got something else instead.
Oh yeah class photo taking was today(:
hahahaha.

History can't lie
Bleeding bleeding in love

I was dang tired today.
I slept after chinese compo writing, without checking.
again.
oh whatever.
had lunch homeworked abit den photo taking.
Kiana look like a nurse(:
hahahaha.
anyway, poses were idk how to explain.
training after that.
we werent really performing for some god knows reason.
after training went to staff room with Jamie to get her touch ipod,
who knows Miss Lum werent there.
and when we went down she was downstairs.
Nevine was per tutoring Trina, so waited for her.
The most amusing trip home jamie.
hahaha inner joke.
oh well.
didnt wear my ankle guard today and it feels weird(?)
yeah. conclusion im very tired.
Kallanging tmr.
abit of training and seniors match(:

Get well soon stubborn kid.

The DJ pronounced my name wrongly.
zzzz.
zzz lin not si ling.
thanks for the dedication LYNETTE LIEW(:
BEAUTIFUL is the song(:
oh well thanks for understanding that its hard to chill and all.
yes its only 25 days.

TKSS vs SMSS- 21-29 to SMSS


took my D&T test today.
I finished it on time((:
finished my practical just need to bend.
went off for lunch.
Morning was still the same hand arounds with yas.
stories here stories there.
and I cut myself thanks to my class leader badge/ name tag (?)
crap?
anyway Im starting to hate to sit at the back-.-
anyway so yes game.
I think I played badly.
And sorry for that face la.
It just come naturally yknow.
I didnt mean it.
And DANIELLE I KNOW YOUR READING THIS. ROLLLLLLLLL.
wtv wtv.
wanted to dinner with creww.
hahaha. but have to go home cos my aun said she cooked-.-
so I went home.
Elle poured colddd water on me just now.
Your going to get in on Sat.
Down into the pool you go yo :D
watch out.
ps. sexy is not used to describe me thanks.

But it didnt work out that way):

01) Who's the last person who called you "baby"?
-

02) When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Yes-.-

03) If you have to kiss that last person you kissed, would you??
-

04) Has someone ever sung a song to you?
No.

05) Do you play sudoku?
Seldom.

06) If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
I hope so,

07) If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you would do?
Scream.

08) Who is the last person you shared a bed with?share a bed?
Idk.

09) Who do you text the most?like message?
Yasira.

10) Who said the last, that they love you?
): sarah.

11) What colour are your eyes?
Dark dark brown.

12) How tall are you?
1.56 m

13) Do you like your parents?
uh huh.

14) Do you secretly like someone?LIKE ?
Yeah):

15) Why did your last relationship end?
Idk. Maybe I got to tired waiting.

16) Who was the last person who said "I love you" on the phone?
-

17) Favourite ex?
Only you):

18) Where was the furthest place you have traveled to?
Perth(:

19) Do you like mustard?
With hot dog bun(:

20) Do you prefer to eat or sleep?
Sleep(:

21) Do you like your mom or dad?
Both??

22) How long does it take you to shower?shower?
20 min or so?

23) Can you do splits?
Noppes.

24) What movie do you want to see now?
Step Up 2(:

25) Do you think the Grudge was crappy?????????
Uh?

26) Was your mom a cheerleader?
No-.-

27) What's the last letter of your middle name?middle name?
E.

28) How many hours of sleep do you get at night?
8h?

29) Do you hate chocolates?
No, I crave for them(:

30) What do you & your parents fight about?
-

31) Are you a gullible person?
Maybe?

32) Do you need a girlfriend/boyfriend to keep you happy?
Idk?

33) Are you easy to get along with?
I guess?

34) What is your favourite time of the day?
Afternoon.

35) Are you a generally happy person?
I dont think so?

36) People to do this?
Anyone.

Good job seniors although you guys didnt make it we know you tried your best(:

Oh today.
Dot sucks thanks to everyone for sabo-ing me.
flirty meg ith the stupid feathery thing wtv you call that?
suckayye.
anyway got over everything.
went down straight to canteen and caught the bus to kallang with snr.
skipped lunch today.
thanks nevine for the little piece of choc though(:
and tricia was just jealous. hahaha.
anyway watched cedar vs sss for 3 quarters den to seniors game.
oh well exciting match.
play a while with tricia trina veno.
den went to get some drink.
I bought like 2 can of red bull, I think I barely drank 1 can-.-
hahahaha. everything was sold out.
sianess.
anyway ride home.
found new route.
Im bombing again la.
stupid.
I've to save up for top up card.
time to saveeeee.
anyway game is tmr.
vs TKSS.
do your best C div(:
will make it all the way.

wtv heartbreaker
one day closer to closing hope.

My sis is such a bitch.
Stupid.
just dinnered.
and I only have 17 min left online. wtf.
tmr school again.
sianess.
blahs.
I'll be going for elle's party((:
see ya on sat((:
I was so pissed with my sis.
I pulled the toilet paper so hard I knock my hand against the basin-.-
now got blue black.
no mood. today sucked.

Give me a answer.
I dont want to keep waiting.
you got her and im not needed here.
everything seems to clash with your answer.
forget everything.

The Bottom Line
You can't take helpful insight from your dreams. Talk to a good friend instead.
In Detail
The insight you've been taking from your dreams hasn't been of much use to you lately, so it might be time to start thinking about a better way to figure things out. Bizarre images you see as you sleep are little more than variations on your day -- they are not showing you the answers to your problems. If you really want to sort out what's been bugging you, stay awake -- and talk to someone you trust. Share your thoughts and ask for their input.

oh well.
this com is screwed idk why theres a huge space when I press enter.
anyway. I shall blog later at night.
hahahaha.
Push me away again and again
I'll Never get you back again?

I feel like blogging now.
cos I feel like shit.
jet even though I found people here in school.
I havent forget you.
I never will.
thanks for abit abit of counselling today?
hahaha.
although you completely sabo-ed me.
it didnt work la dont try anymore.
but thanks ok thanks.


gender makes no difference , love doesnt see , its not blind - it just doesnt mind

I woke up at 7 today.
late.
so I took cab to Novena for Jamie to pick me up.
Nevine was already there.
went down to knc.
macs is under renovation-.-
didnt go for breakfast then.
so laze around and all.
while my stomachache come and go.
training started so 5 rounds around 6 courts.
sorry I think I pms alot today.
and slack alot.
oh well.
friendly with cedar and RV.
melly ump is their coach uh (RV)
hahahahaha.
anyway went home.
with the bloody nausea coming back.
I got no seat from MRT to bus to all the way home.
I was standing like L again-.-
came home bathe went to sleep.
tired luh today.
I didnt even eat lunch.
woke up at like 6.
yeah.
dont feel like blogging.

I think I know why I cant put you down
your already a part of me):
isit too little too late?
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Woke up at 9 to do some work before I go off to meet Jamie Tricia and Trina.
Left home at 12.32pm ?
the bus came in time(:
I was about 30 min early.
Yas accompanied me the whole way.
sms that is.
soon have to meet them and they told me to meet them at spotlight.
I was listening to my MP3 and smsing.
so 1st embarrassment:
almost going up to another level but turn back while I realise and almost bang into a guy.
2nd embarrassment:
they were standing right at where the escalator was but yet I went into the Spotlight.
and they shouted for me alot of times.
super embarrassing please.
Kay so Jamie Tricia Trina Olivia Chantal was there.
Then decided to go for lunch.
Pepper lunch is close amazingly.
So went for chicken rice.
after that Jamie Tricia Trina Olivia headed down to their church not including Jamie.
So yeah reach there changed den went down.
everyone were like strangers.
but get to know some people.
yeah.
den played the romans and christian game, which was super funny.
olivia getting wet.
lol.
and the commotion in 3-6
lol.
run jamie run.
anyway the banana and stuff disgusting
hahahahaha.
then after that got reflection
and making me realise how fortunate we are.
very meaningful(:
then went home.
sakae sushi with family.
den went home
nausea came back.
stupid virus.
den cough and sneeze.
stupid.
hope i'll get well by tmr?
yeah.
hahaha.

I'd like to runaway from you. but if you dont come and find me, i'd die.
maybe we've choose wrongly , im hurting more than when i was without you.
stop pushing me away - imy

Its 30 min to midnight. oh well, no one is talking. whole world is ignoring me now. everything you said is flooding me again. Oh no I cant go to you anytime I want anymore. Yes I tried to, very hard actually, to move on. Ask my friends okay, I promise to not emo. Well yes I still do but at least I cut them down, cos I remembered the promise. Everytime I cry, I remember no I cannot, and Im not going to let you know that I did. I thought I could see you in my future. Oh well I thought. I've got enough, I cant take it anymore. I think Im going to die. I've my limits, where I can pull till. And this is my limits. maybe a lil more time is needed but for now this is the furthest I can go. I've tried hard enough. you stay happy.



Tongue Tied-Faber Drive
Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

I wanted to skip school today,
but being a good girl I didnt.
somehow Amelia saw my swollen eyes-.-
stupid la you.
tskk.
anyway PE today was hilarious.
Practiced for NAPHA.
Mother Tongue was hilarious too.
Lao Shi's angry face.
muahaha.
Im getting all naughty in chi class and I realise okay.
hahaha.
anyway training today too.
just working on defenders.
watch for their hands and stuff.
then street netball den continued with our working with defenders.
Jamie and her jack jack jack.
hahahaha.
Took same bus as Jamie den talk talk talk.
went home back to the sian mood-.-
anyway asked for permission to get out of this place tmr.
and yes((:
being grounded doesnt seems to be grounded.
but my aunt suspect I got a Bf which is stupid.
Im getting tired of the world's ignorance.
Im getting tired of not being able to get over you.
Im getting tired of life.

I got enough of everything,
I cant pull through.

Oh well went to school today perfectly fine.
yeah so everything pass pass pass.
den went out of class lunch up the bus.
I was feeling really sleepy cos I took my med.
But anyway yeah so I took a short nap in the bus. with the background of sam and mrs wong conversation.
about mas selamat and how he escaped?
funny though.
yeah it was quite a long ride.
I couldnt do anything else but sleep I was tired.
thanks med :\
so it was pouring with lightning and thunder.
1st game got called off.
so us our game being 2nd game waited.
and we got to play.
but firstly I want to say how tall shab is.
omg?
so tallllll.
I feel shorttttt.
anyway so yeah.
game.
They put in the 1st 4 goals.
omg?
we were like oh no whats wrong?
but soon we caught up luh.
I only got 1 stepping today and none of the rest so yeah(:
but 1 stepping-.-
anyway yeah so final score was 35-14 (?)
everything went so smoothly until I went home-.-
reached at about 8.
and den got scolding cos I reached home at 8-.-
and den my aunt called miss chng?
awesome?
shit la.
dont talk about it.
anyway trip home was still awesome.
although I got stuck at the mrt instead of tricia-.-
and I got a really weird what? look.
stupid-.-
hahaha.
alright I want fever.
im tired i dont want go school man.
Thats stupid la but I am tired shit.
ah okay nvm byeeee.

she better hold him tight,
and give him all the love,

I am having stomach flu and fever):
Great and Im having game tmr.
whatever im still going for it.
so yeah went to school. I walk like some idiot.
whatever Kiana Im not L.
went back to class suffered for 1 period I cant take it anymore.
decided to chao home.
went home slept all the way till 11.
den went to doc den went home slept till 6.
superb.
and for the first time I got no appetite.
got forced to eat
oh well.
for those who sms me thanks loads.
for those you know how special today is and made sure I was alright thanks loads too.

1st day of schoooool.
I think Jac and May Yin is crazy.
And yasira wanting to show me where ahem seat is-.-
why would I wna know la please.
so despo la you.
alot people got haircut.
Dioneeee.
haha couldnt recognise her
anyway from today on I'll be sitting right at the back of the class-.-
rahh. Have to take attendance.
and today mark wrongly.
didnt know sharmini wasnt present.
ah forget it.
Jannelle aint in school today.
sprain wrist.
school kinda bring.
change of time table.
oh crap 3 periods of D & T tmr.
And that reminds me of the test. crap I didnt bring my book home.
wtv go to school and revise tmr.
I seem to forget everything nowadays.
Oh Well.
after school went ps with ivie and Amelia.
I shouldnt even had told my aunt Im going home.
She dont even know I am not staying back.
crap.
anyway went to look for stuff.
den amelia treat us to KFC.
shit I said I wouldnt eat fast food this week.
thanks uh.
oh crap.
Just pick my brother up from childcare.
and im here.
posted pics glen send on photoblog
quizz
Sometimes your emotions get out of control, but you usually are a pretty stable person.You can find a lot to be happy about, as long as things are going your way.But if a few bad things happen to you, you tend to go in a bit of a downward spiral.Luckily, you usually come out of it okay and no worse for the wear.
I BOMBED AGAIN

omg finally I got MONEY(:
didnt get money this week.
I owe Jamie cashhh.
I probably sarah?
hahaha.
crappy.
Sitira today I wrote 4 pages of those stupid stuff.
thanks for the 2 methods(:
sushi-ed with family again
but add some shopping and stuff.
shirt and my aunt bought me 3 bottles of perfume yo.
hahahaha.
my family is falling sick sick.
my bro and sis are like vomiting machine.
gross.
noodles water all out.
sick luh.
No please dont pass it to me.
its 10 I was about to blog more but nvm.
Holidays are over.
School Im coming.
and I miss everyone.
I expects lotsa hugs(:
goodnights.

You've got me hypnotise
Your always on my mind.
shit.

What Koh Sze Lin Means

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

okay all of a sudden I like this type of skin.
Idk why.
hahaha.
nothing to blog about today.
today was quite boring luh.
except it was 7.46am when Kiana called.
crazy luh.
but I swear I didnt hear it.
crazy call me so early.
I still sleeping la.
hahahaha.
since I got nothing to blog then I shall go blog the photos(:
Photoblog(:

I am super tired now.
Its almost 2 and I think Im heading for bed soon.
But I'll have to blog now.
Slept at 2 yesterday woke up at 6.
den cabbed down to primary school with Kat.
yeah.
We were like 2nd to reach.
still got alot of time.
So went to prepare everything and so on.
Hanging around in the CCA room.
Michelle came then,
damn sweet la please the first thing she came in was walk to me and give me a hug.
And I feel tall(:
hahaha.
Hahaha I love her(:
Oh fine JET I love you more.
hahaha.
I didnt know she was like at the door,
and I was making my way out.
Omg the joy to see you again after how many weeks??
Idk, but I was really happy.
I hope you like the present.
Wear the laces(:
Made our way to Kallang.
Miss Seng wasnt in good mood man.
anyway so yeah made our way to Kallang.
Met Nabilah Jannelle and June.
Trained juniors.
Took the defenders together with Nabilah.
Miss Seng say take then take lor.
hahaha.
I think I killed them.
Mainly taught them outer hand and agression like Miss Seng said.
hahaha.
made 2 players contess for one ball.
do 10 before you can rest.
I threw the ball over the whole world.
hahahaha.
I am mean,
hahaha.
WASABI SHOES
I want I want(:
The team dont really want so I guess have to order from Miss Seng myself.
Yeah, the shoes is like so nice please.
hahaha.
okay so after that went macs.
Ate, goodbye):
then smss people continued staying there.
Talked to Evan for awhile then she had to go.
tskk.
kay then went back to Kallang,
warm up game starts.
friendly against VJC.
oh my umpiring sucks la.
hahahaha.
I missed alot of stuff.
when we were playing I thought it was good la.
in the end beat them 24-14.
after that fun game.
den wrote the message.
hahaha damn funny.
they cant draw a heart,
ahahaha.
after everything went KFC with Jamie Tricia and Trina.
omg I thought we crapped alot.
Got choked on coke also laugh until like what la.
hahahaha.
took bus with lynette and the rest.
hahaha I think we were making lot of noise.
and I malu-ed sitira.
hahahaha.
walk and talk.
hahahaha. yeah.
alighted and douby took traing to novena.
train ride was hilarious with Jamie
The women behind me was sleeping while she stand up.
and the other one Jamie you say it. Its funny.
hahahaha.
Bus came at the same time again(: haha
so went home.
yeah.
Guess what hahaha ego sitira is back again.
hahahaha.
Dolly Parker uh? Thats like super random please.
Napkin from cruise.
hahahaha.
Mel I'll support sharks(:
hahahaha.
All the best for NSL yo(:
And I still cant believe it okay.
hahaha. Its was unexpectable please.
lols.
yeah yeah okay I think I shall go sleep now,
And pray that I dont ge sick man.
All of my sib are sick.
fever and all.
tskk.
okay goodnights(:

Oh yeah this song means alot.
Like you said.
Crap its how I feel actually.
Cos all along I dont want to go to bed,
cos Im afraid I might think of you.
Too Close For Comfort-Mcfly
I never meant the things I said
To make you cry
Can I say I'm sorry
It's hard to forget
And yes I regret
All these mistakes
I don't know why you're leaving Me
But I know you must have your reasons
There's tears in your eyes
I watch as you cry

But it's getting late
Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know

Remember when we scratched our names into the sand
And told me you loved me
But now that I find
That you've changed your mind
I'm lost the words
And everything I feel for you
I wrote down on one piece of paper
The one in your hand
You won't understand
How much it hurts to let you go

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know

All this time you've been telling me lies
Hidden in bags that are under your eyes
And when I asked you I knew I was right
But if you turn your back on me no
When I need you most
But you just let me down, down, down
Would you think about what you're about to do to me
And back down...

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in(Yeh yeh yeh)
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
I guess I'll never know...

Oh yeah I just talked to Clara and listened to her blog song.
She made me realise how ignorant I was.
To those people that have been there.
To those people that helped me through all the shit.
I guess I was just too busy with my everything I forgot about the ones around me.
How I took everyone for granted.
Sorry, ily every single one of you.
And clara you got to cheer up.
Love makes us idiots.
Don't worry everything's going to be okay.
I am here(:
Oh yeah talking to her make me realise alot alot things.
Too much to list.
Thanks for helping me pull through everyday.
cos of what you said(:
I stopped hoping cos I know I'll be disappointed.
You taught me that.
I thought yeah it makes sense.
The song was awesome.
The lyrics meaningful.
I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
So yeah move on,
todays weather is worst.
lightning thunder,
its scary.
anyway went for training.
venue changed.
trained in school.
the sun came out for awhile.
went to play game.
hilarious stuff happened.
dimissed a about 5.15pm?
went island with the rest.
and rahh thanks to vivien tricia was pestering me about who who who.
Vivien: *look at my phone* you locked it?? *show me smses.
Me: omg you saw it.
Tricia Trina: What what?
*guessing and guessing*
Vivien: eh can lock one meh?
Trina: you think her phone so outdated cannot lock meh.
Vivien: how to lock??
Trina: you slide the phone down and lock la.
Super hilarious I swear
She thought we were talking about locking the phone
instead of locking messages.
oh well.
took 186 den my aunt called and said they were going for sushi
so I had to alight take 153.
So troublesome.
but ya la I went cos I wanted sushi((:
hahaha.
yeah nothing much luh.
I just hate the weather nowadays.
when will the sun come out)):

hypnotised-mcfly
I feel like I've been here once before
You threw my bags through the
Door and in the Road
I came home to find them on the floor
And as the rain began to poor
I got cold
And I tried to compromise
But you keep telling me all these lies
Now I don't get to say my
Last goodbyes

Goodbye to you've been wastin
All my timeYour no longer mine now
You've left me
I can't seem to get you off my mind
Thats when I realised you had me hynotised

Why am I now living on my own
She keeps inviting people home all the time
Why am I still paying for her phone
When all the luxuries she owns should be mine
Now I start to wonder why
You shrug me off when I say hi
You treat me so bad
Despite how hard I try

Goodbye to you've been wastin
All my timeYour no longer mine now
You've left me
I can't seem to get you off my mind
Thats when I realised you had me hynotised

Girl you can't hold me back no more
Your not even worth me writing lyrics for
We had something good together
Do you think you were being clever
To throw me out in awful weather
How do I forget you now
I can't get you off my mind
That's when I realised you had me hypnotised

Goodbye to you've been wastin
All my timeYour no longer mine now
You've left me
I can't seem to get you off my mind
Thats when I realised you had me hynotised

Oh yeah I cant seem to get you off my mine,
no matter how much you lied.

KIANA KOH I WANT GO SENTOSA(:
I am talking to her on the phone now.
Its 1.03am.
shes want to see my new haircut.
hahahaha. her mum is hogging the com.
quick come online webcam.
go get a webcam yo!
lol.
financial blessing wth.
hahahahaha.
Im broke!

I got a haircut(:
hahahaha,
Cant cut V tricia.
my hair too short.
cut U instead.
hahaha.
Finally manage to cut my fringe.
hehe.
okay stop about hair.
but nothing happen today.
just that someone is leaving.
the ego person is leaving for holi.
I bet your going to miss me yo.
Quick come back and ego again.
hahahaha.
have fun and take care.
capture of your egoness.
Interesting thing.
hahahahaha.

Oh everyone is holiday-ing.

while i stay at home and wish I can still be here.

hahahaha.
training tmr in the afternoon.

Please let the weather be good
I want to play game.

hahahaha.
Today juniors had carnival at sss. thought I could go but my aunt said made appointment with hairdresser
and crap it we only went at 3pm

stupid luh I could have gone and help bilah buy ankle guard. but ah whatever. I must go for the one on friday. Kiana Koh was pestering me to updat update update. Now I update. hahahaha. But she's not online. oh wtv. Cos living without without without you in my life. your eyes arent lying as much as your mouth did.

oh right I got sudden urge to webcam.
hahaha.
dont ask me why.
my aunt reminded me there was a bottle of wine in the fridge.
hahahaha.
and yes im drinking.
I want to read PS I Love You.
anyone got the book?

yknow I know all those stuff you said aint true.
but I chose to believe.
how stupid can I get?
you've got over me haven't you?
seriously, I just wna know the truth.

training today.
oh well the weather sucked.
drizzling then rained.
so training was different you can say.
it was supposedly be court play/work.
idk.
but it became abit of fitness.
oh well.
KFC-ed with jamie danielle and veno.
jamie is sick):
get well soon buddy(:
I was waiting for her dad to pick us up.
her fingernails and lips were purple??
she was freezing yo.
gave me a ride home.
thanks(:
I was like super full.
I bombed again. only got 2 bucks left.
so try not to text me):
sorry:/
so yeah I was wet.
hehehe.
I was making JET's birthday present.
burning the paper.
hahaha.
writing drawing.
hint hint jet.
hahahaha.
i'll give it to you on fri((:
hahaha(:

can I say I dont miss you?

yo.
back here Im just bored luh.
sarah joy koh just said I look bitchy
and its good cos I dont get bullied-.-
wth la.
hahahaha.
and yas just said I look happy-.-

& yasira every glance is killing me says:
eh
& yasira every glance is killing me says:
can dont emo
& yasira every glance is killing me says:
it's not nice
♥ Sitting here with a heartache says:
lol
& yasira every glance is killing me says:
it sucks to try to comfort you when you're emo
& yasira every glance is killing me says:
cuz i dunno what to say
& yasira every glance is killing me says:
besides chill and it's okay
& yasira every glance is killing me says:
and dont emo

Shes getting annoyed.
ah hah.
okay okay I'll keep to my promise of not emo-ing(:

today was cool.
hahaha.
tuned my guitar.
i just realise there an error.
hahaha,
anyway left home at 5.45
Kiana called me in the bus.
everyone was staring at me la.
reached Jamie was there.
the rest were lateeee.
tricia trina came after jamie and I went to the toilet and went back.
Jamie- Little Miss Sunshine
Tricia- Little Miss Giggles
Me- Little Miss Naughty.
hehe. we didnt plan it.
Jamie was slow though I was with her for the 15 min she didnt realise.
trina and I were complaining of hunger so decided to walk and but food.
wanted to buy chicken rice but the foodcourt close.
then there was a sign its was a arrow witht he word foodcourt.
Trina: eh got another foodcourt there, eh? shit its pointing in there.
the arrow was pointing into the foodcourt which is close-.-
super funny please.
so walked to where the interchange is burger king-ed instead.
when jamie said tricia stop being so digglies.
hahahah okay it was suppose to be giggly.
kay anyway I took a pic of aunty tricia.
upload soooooon.
met sylvia sarah yiyi on the way.
sylvia: why 3 all little miss tees??
hahaha. dang funny.
anyway okay went back game starting.
totally cool.
slam it down.
3 pointers everywhere.
when i left the score was 109-139.
i think.
sorry man, couldnt stayover.
but see ya tmr(:
you got jack jamie.
hahahaha.
training tmr.
sarah minying amber playing with that cheekopek online.
I was freaked out please.
hahahaha.
okok that all.
Kiana I know you miss me((:
JET I want a hug((:

I know its a lil late.
but yes I'll take care
I'll try not to emo
I'll stop blasting music.
so go have fun in malaysia(:
You have to take care too alrights.

fixtures are so out.
playing against
TKSS.
Clementi town.
Canberra.
groupings are okay.
not bad.

Monday come come come.
Im like dang bored at home.
just had dinner.
just my sis and I at home.
the others went out for dinner.
I am too lazy to go out.
I was thinking about everything today.
somehow.
the funniest thing to the saddest thing.
and one of them is when I was playing with my tongue.
for idk what reason I just started playing with my tongue.
den I told amelia eh so weird I am playing with my tongue.
den she wrote on the paper.
its because you wna kiss.
71% cos they want to kiss and 50% of them wear braces.
crappy.
talking to Fion(:
haha havent seen her for quite some time.
sorry to JET.
I got grounded,
will get your present during one of the juniors training alright?
sorry =x
to the outing clique sorry
no ice skating this holis)):
I'll make up for it.
this holi is going to suck.
my aunts buying assessments.
shit.
rah szelin dont feel like blogging anymore.
byeeee.

Yknow everything aint going to fine, without you.
I didnt say I didnt love you no more.
I still do, just that everything is not going out right.
I didnt wanted it to be goodbye.
but I guess its time.
I miss you--I loved you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMIE(:
stay pretty(: 4 yers and counting(:
I hope you like the shirt though.
and the suprise.
ahahah.
oh well, happy birthday again(:

shit okay,
Im like grounded.
thanks to my results.
tskkk.
english-B3
Maths-B3
Sci-A1
IH-A1
D&T-B4
CHI-C5
thanks to chinese okay chinese.
argh.
after school, saw jamie with her big box of presents.
hahaha.
I put the present on top of the box.
from danielle and I.
yeah den whisper whisper eye contacted.
so yeah the whole suprise thing.
nevine and I went to buy the cake while the rest go off.
den told trina to bring jamie to the toilet while we got into the stadium.
this whole interesting process.
the best part is knowing jamie didnt realise a single thing.
instead she thinks we're going to giv her birthday blessings.
hahaha. cadles not lit.
its too windy.
anyway beore bringing out the cake.
there was training.
it wasnt that tough today yet I was like panting.
Danielle: I never hear you panting that loud before.
hahaha alrights idk why but yeah.
after that and the suprise watch abit of the basketball match thingy.
didnt get to watch the pro though.
but all I know they are super tall?
hahaha.
walked with jamie to the bus interchange and then home-d.
And then I was stupid to show my aunt my results.
rahh now my whole holi is screwed.
basically it'll be training studies home.
and tricia nvm if your grounded, Im grounded too.
you got a companion.
hahaha well at least.
smash cream on your face man!
hahaha.
suprise went all smoothly.
Kiana misses me I know.
hahaha.

Because you live and breathe.
becuase you made me believe in myself when nobody else can help.
because you live, girl
my world had twice as many stars in the sky.
I kinda miss you):

I knew it wasnt going to work out, cos I love you too much
[quoted from P.S. I Love You(:]
Sports day.....
went there early with nevine,
to practice
and poof its cancelled.
saddening uh?
whatever.
After we're being dismiss walked around like a lost sheep,
chasing after cabs with sam danielle and yas.
walk up walk down stupid taxi none of them stop.
I hate flagging for cabs.
tskkk.
walked to taxi stand then.
but somehow yas cant go have to go home.
cheer up uh. dont argue argue tao?
and ecpb you scare her.
hahaha.
((;
cab all the way to pri school.
den visit visit.
talked to miss seng for quite sometime.
changed then walked down to douby.
so yeah danielle and I left for movie while sam went home.
lunch-ed in school though.
Gosh I swear I miss the bake rice((: I ate it.
hahaha.
Jac I know you're jealous.
and apparently there's no more nice fishballs,
tskkk.
anyway watched P.S I Love You.
wanted to watch leap years but it wasnt showing at that cinema.
tskk.
anyway watching with danielle quite boring, hahaha.
she showed no emotions to wtv happen.
but it somehow reminded me of you):
okay back here went to bought Jamie's gift before that.
and JET's too.
nothing really great but I want you to use them((:
thats for all the theraphy sessions.
hahaha.
one recently and the other one way back.
reached home at 4.30 straight I came here.
hahaha.
To make me happy you have to colour my life red(:
oh yeah its a bitchy day.
cursing and swearing all around inside me.
cos the next thing I know you are _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.
anyway, I think my sister is crazy,
she've been crying to sleep.
she's only 9 please.
maybe she got the disease from me.
oh did I mention I love nabilah bte abdul too?
I can pour out everything on her
but I'll know she's still there(:
oh yeah and I hate those bitches.

Pulled through today,
but the next thing tmr is coming sooner than I know.
But its happy to see you've got over me.
Its now a picture of you and me and the history.

yay. KOHSZELIN was higher today n yesterday. keep up the good progress. please, emo people are freaking me out. i mean, sze lin those "type" is bad but not as bad as cherylynn already. but still, be cheerful, like..... kiana? really. you'll feel better. and put on a fake smile too.i made a poem or smt abt sze lin you know? haha. nth better to do. got a bad one and a good one. obviously, both aren't true. smth like:
S (blahblahblah)
Z(blahblahblah)
E(blahblahblah)
L(blahblahblah)
I(blahblahblah)
N(blahblahblah)
I know this is super lame. Its from lynette, my dearest partner.
But thanks anyway.
XINTIAN THANKS TONS FOR YOURS TOO(((:
go read it super meaningful I thought(:

Loser, you didnt dream of ahem.
abs hurts and my right knee hurts.
rahh.
stupid knee pain is coming back.
right.
anyway yes as kiana said sci was boring.
as usual?
so yeah talk and talk.
today suay so got caught.
hahahaha.
things seems to be fine.
oh well.
Yasira is dang happy.
yeah yeah shuddup yas.
Prize giving today.
all went smoothly.
house practice it rained so stayed in school.
ran with sam once.
so funny please.
she was like I am sliding omg then I went ahead. hahaha
den after that went home.
sam said she drop her name tag.
hahaha.
plans to go out tmr.
I havent ask though.
probably with danielle and sam.
sam cant stay for long.
so its only me and danielle.
watching leap years?
watching this program on neball now.
coolios.
hahahah.
anyway xintian was super funny just now.
After CT I went toilet so I was going back to class.
suddenly xintian from behine run to me bang me on my shoulder and said
IVIE DO IT NOW!
den i was like lost cos I wasnt Ivie in the first place.
hahaha.
practical for sci.
oh well.
CT i slept like 45 min?
Lynette was drooling on her jacket how scary.
hahahah.
Kiana made me realise I got a mistake.
hahahaha.
saddeningly its a careless one.
century century century den wrong
wth luhh.
kayy I asked and I can be out tmr.
evan just warned me of mas selamat.
hahaha.

Its not easy but I mange to pull through each day.

I promise not to freak anyone out again.
and I'll try my best to keep to the promise(:

What a day.
Training was tiring?
20 rounds.
500 both leg 200 each leg skip.
5 sets steps.
2 sets leg raise.
crazy.
Before that was RGS and IJ game for both div.
after that was prize presentation.
photo taking den training.
after training went home.
and I realise my freaking ez link is goneeee.
omg?
Miss Lum walked with us to the bus interchange,
caught my bus it was leaving
anyway thanks to sitira for snickers((:
rmb I owe you bottle of pepsi.
and it took me really long time to realise I was the snickers girl on your blog.
thanks tons(: I said Hi to ahem so yeah hahaha. dang funny i tell you. lols.
you dont moodswing also still say me. hahahaha. okay okay(:
yepps.
Thanks to Evan for YP.
hahaha.
another prize presentation in school tmr.
hahaha.
okay okay Im getting tired and everything.
byeeee.

sorry, sorry if you can tell that I felt worse when you were around):
maybe cos I havent put everything down.

Thanks tons man.
all the post dedicated to me and so on.
this is from clara(:
It's not the pain,
It's not the hurt,
It's the hole in your heart
I bet,
It's Like a mark without it's visibility,
Like darkness without light.
Isn't it?
Don't be down,
Love comes from all sources,
Since it's the closest thing we have to a miracle,
A miracle in it's special way,
God made sure there was much to give,
In different places,
In different ways.
You are loved my friend,
You are loved for you.
Everyone wants it,yet they don't realise it.
Fill up that hole,by giving that missing love.
Give it & receive it,
Own it and have neverending supply.
We love because God first loved us,
Make love your own and share it,
So smile.
whoo thanks uh(:
this is from Kiana(:
[ SPECIAL NOTE TO SZELIN:)))]
EII!!!
dun emo le lahh!!!
be take verii super, high person!!!
tat side of you is more lovable:)))
hahas...
you wont "recover" so fast, tat i know...
but waddever happens...
i'll be here okay???
(OKAY...I'M NOT LES... DUN EVEN TINK 'BOUT IT!!!)
but...
juzz keep smiling okay???
its healthier...
and you can get better results:))))))))))))
hahas...
HOPING TO SEE YOU WITH A SMILE 2MORO MORNING IN SCHOOL!!!
:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))(like tat^^)
JIAYOUS MONITRESS!!!
hahas...
BYE BYE:)))
Thanks alot alot.
Idk what to say.
sorry for throwing temper if I did.
Just know that I'll be okay after reccess.
Its killing me.
anyway, just thanks for everything(:
the consideration the encouragement.
we only knew each other for almost 1 term for some of you,
yet its like how many years.
hahaha.
nt that bad afterall.
Risa was being totally hyper.
after school that was.
with her crap.
muahaha.
totally gross though.
human body(: hahaha.
at least it did make me laugh my heads off.
house practice was slack?
ran twice only.
then went to do hw with danielle den go home.
oh well.
today is a cold day.
cuddling up with my bro cookie monster pillow and small lil blanket.
yes although I heard some unwanted stuff today.
Kiana was high?
hahaha.
I thought I would like to mention you in my bloggy again.
Tmr is prize giving.
leaving at 12 again.
however training is tough uh?
TP stadium.
track here I come.

dang, I feel useless, so many people around me who got my back.
yet I cant move on.
sorry. hide those pain and worry with just a smile(:

Tear-stained pillow):
went to bed at 1.07am yesterday.
dearest jet stopped me from crying by sms-ing me the whole time before I actually sleep.
ily luh(:
this time is bad, its worse than the first breakup.
how badly I miss you although it has only been a day.
You were the cause of why I bombed every month.
Its not the case anymore.
something's missing.
Dear tragedy, what more do you want from me?

thanks clara
thanks kiana
thanks ecpb
thanks yasira
thanks JET
thanks nabilah
thanks dajie.
thanks Niveetha
thanks Twin
thanks all those that cheer me up(: