I think long profiles are really interesting, but everytime I type something, I just think that its not coming out how I want to, or it just doesnt make sense to me half the time. I guess I can never express myself good enough. Anyway Im Szelin, I dont update here very often cos I don't want to be a bad example (ha-ha I know right) if you know me Im @ dearestblank.lj instead, pictures will be here every now and then.

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Oh yeah I just talked to Clara and listened to her blog song.
She made me realise how ignorant I was.
To those people that have been there.
To those people that helped me through all the shit.
I guess I was just too busy with my everything I forgot about the ones around me.
How I took everyone for granted.
Sorry, ily every single one of you.
And clara you got to cheer up.
Love makes us idiots.
Don't worry everything's going to be okay.
I am here(:
Oh yeah talking to her make me realise alot alot things.
Too much to list.
Thanks for helping me pull through everyday.
cos of what you said(:
I stopped hoping cos I know I'll be disappointed.
You taught me that.
I thought yeah it makes sense.
The song was awesome.
The lyrics meaningful.
I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
So yeah move on,
todays weather is worst.
lightning thunder,
its scary.
anyway went for training.
venue changed.
trained in school.
the sun came out for awhile.
went to play game.
hilarious stuff happened.
dimissed a about 5.15pm?
went island with the rest.
and rahh thanks to vivien tricia was pestering me about who who who.
Vivien: *look at my phone* you locked it?? *show me smses.
Me: omg you saw it.
Tricia Trina: What what?
*guessing and guessing*
Vivien: eh can lock one meh?
Trina: you think her phone so outdated cannot lock meh.
Vivien: how to lock??
Trina: you slide the phone down and lock la.
Super hilarious I swear
She thought we were talking about locking the phone
instead of locking messages.
oh well.
took 186 den my aunt called and said they were going for sushi
so I had to alight take 153.
So troublesome.
but ya la I went cos I wanted sushi((:
hahaha.
yeah nothing much luh.
I just hate the weather nowadays.
when will the sun come out)):

hypnotised-mcfly
I feel like I've been here once before
You threw my bags through the
Door and in the Road
I came home to find them on the floor
And as the rain began to poor
I got cold
And I tried to compromise
But you keep telling me all these lies
Now I don't get to say my
Last goodbyes

Goodbye to you've been wastin
All my timeYour no longer mine now
You've left me
I can't seem to get you off my mind
Thats when I realised you had me hynotised

Why am I now living on my own
She keeps inviting people home all the time
Why am I still paying for her phone
When all the luxuries she owns should be mine
Now I start to wonder why
You shrug me off when I say hi
You treat me so bad
Despite how hard I try

Goodbye to you've been wastin
All my timeYour no longer mine now
You've left me
I can't seem to get you off my mind
Thats when I realised you had me hynotised

Girl you can't hold me back no more
Your not even worth me writing lyrics for
We had something good together
Do you think you were being clever
To throw me out in awful weather
How do I forget you now
I can't get you off my mind
That's when I realised you had me hypnotised

Goodbye to you've been wastin
All my timeYour no longer mine now
You've left me
I can't seem to get you off my mind
Thats when I realised you had me hynotised

Oh yeah I cant seem to get you off my mine,
no matter how much you lied.