I think long profiles are really interesting, but everytime I type something, I just think that its not coming out how I want to, or it just doesnt make sense to me half the time. I guess I can never express myself good enough. Anyway Im Szelin, I dont update here very often cos I don't want to be a bad example (ha-ha I know right) if you know me Im @ dearestblank.lj instead, pictures will be here every now and then.

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Yesterday
Fell asleep while waiting for the com-.-
anyway, game with canberra and missed Sci day.
awesome.
I screwed up the game.
but the score was 40-1 in the end to st.margs.
Draw's out.
310308- MGS
020408- St. Nicks
040408- SSS
Our grouping is a good one.
The other group has:
IJ TP, RGS, CGS and TKSS.
yeah so ours considered good.
after everything went home with nevine and Jamie.
Nevine you pms la like crazy.
and Jamie I bet the hot air was your fart hahahaha.
ohoh performed the NIKE shop guy today.
it didnt seem hilarious to them.
Jamie and I were still laughing.
yeah end of yesterday(:
Today
Jamie pick me up at my homie.
and den went kallang.
didnt have breakfast again):
anyway training started after watching 1 quarter of seniors game.
oh well.
team talked.
Nevine jacked Jamie.
hahahaha.
Me: eh take what bus take whats bus?
Jamie: If 31 come first then take 31 is 14 come first then take 14.
Me: 31 IS HERE JAMIE! RUN!
*starts running*
quite hilarious if you think about it.
then when I got up the bus.
tap EZlink already I was being kind to wait for nevine at yet she said go go go and push me.
Idk why I started laughing again and walk towards the seat like some idiot.
yeah went home did all my stuff,
den set off to meet Jamie at Novena.
den we took MRT all the way to woodlands.
den took 912 as told.
but then we were kinda lost.
and den this stupid uncle ion front of us keep looking at us.
Me: eh the uncle keep staring he stare at you den I look at him then he suddenly look at me den I look away.
Jamie: yah yah I saw him looking at you den he suddenly turn to me den I look away.
Den we took all the way back to woodlands waited for 912 again.
den aask the uncle if he goes to wtv place.
den he said oh the other side,
but elle said not to go to the other side.
so we decided to cab down.
and I swear the taxi driver is the most hilarious taxi driver ever.
I thought he was scary but he was nice(:
reached there met elle at basketball court.
Jamie and I were like uh?
we didnt know alot of people.
maybe just JET and Nat for jamie.
At least I know beverly tabitha and Zahirah.
played tennis badminton captains ball, den went to eat
after we ate den we went to this place with air con to sit.
took pictures, I'll post it jamie.
you and your unglam-ness.
hahahaha.
oh yeah once I was laughing so hard my head hit on the side of the sofa and denmy clip broke.
awesome rightt. hahahaha
And then we decided to go off and find elle and rest.
we didnt find elle but we found, nat zahirah and this other girl=x
oh yeah so we didnt really want to play but then zahirah said
"If you get the shot in I treat you bubble tea,"
so yeah 2 chances for Jamie and I.
I got it in for the 2nd try Jamie didnt get any,
SO ZAHIRAH YOU OWE ME BUBBLE TEA(:
yeah den started playing game,
and I was damn funny luh.
I was like rolling on the floor.
especially when Beverly fell backwards.
oh well I know its mean but she was laughing herself.
you should have seen the scene of her falling.
and Zahirah was like no rules no rules.
hahaha.
so yeah went high.
went down the cut the cake.
took peektures first.
yeah.
went up to elle's house.
truth or dare.
Got dared to kiss her dog.
I did it(:
loveable thing.
Jamie you lucky pok never get spinned
anyway the other daring stuff are prank call.
super funny.
after a while had to go down then sent some home.
Then only Jamie and I and the other girl left.
And and I left my wallet and MP3 with natalie.
oh no.
how am I suppose to sleep):
hahaha nvm I'll survive,
remember to bring on monday((:
then the girl have to leave after that.
so left with Jamie and I.
And and her dogs are gay la.
they hump each other.
gross.
especially the hot dog like doggy.
or sausage like.
wtv la.
Decided to watch a show but but but but,
my aunt called when the show started so I had to leave,
saddening thingy.
anyway I had fun fun fun today(:
thanks ELLE(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY((:
advance that is.
hahaha.
Im tired and I cant sleep sleep sleep.
how?
hahahaha.
to you.
I wont ask you to cheer up cos you probably wont.
I've been through those shit too so I know how it feels.
dont talk about suicides please. Your scaring me, seriously.
and yknow what alot of people cares uh.
I know you really want her to know how much its hurting you but cmon,
if you doesnt take the hint, no point.
stop letting her hurt you so much.
I know it easier said than done.
go get some sleep.
Tmr will be a better day, thats what I always hope for(:

It've been almost a month.
I try to keep myself with everything and anything.
but when I got nothing to do,
and thats when I think of you):
no matter what I do there's still part of you.
I blast the music, but the effing lyrics reminds me of what im trying to forget