I think long profiles are really interesting, but everytime I type something, I just think that its not coming out how I want to, or it just doesnt make sense to me half the time. I guess I can never express myself good enough. Anyway Im Szelin, I dont update here very often cos I don't want to be a bad example (ha-ha I know right) if you know me Im @ dearestblank.lj instead, pictures will be here every now and then.

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play a little with my heart ): its a little fucking feeling


stayed back yesterday.
home-working.
went around doing that stupid hand trick Danielle told me.
to Ann, Lynette, Amelia, Ivie, Iris, Sharmini
Iris and Sharmini chased me la.
Iris strangle me Sharmini tickle me -.-
struggled with art abit then went home.
after yasira tried to pull me into 153. lol.
cabbed to school today and yesterday,
i've become so tired nowadays :/
changed seat and lynnette's seat the table gutter damn dirty ):
kiana reminded me i didn't bring 1c textbook. rah.
debatting.
clara was scary.
kiana delay time.
natasha she mumbles.
lols. but y'all did great(:
i'm writing this at 8.25am so ther's a long way to go.
i found out dark secrets of peeeeeepeeeel.
hahahahas.
and Ms Ow is boring~~~~
and yas was being so kind to help me get pepsi
and amelia for greentea meiji(:
i want training yoz
lol.
okay shdn't crap anymore, listening to class
byeeeeeee.



What hurts the most was the being so close-rascal flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

tell me everything ain't true