after the trip back to the fav primary school, I got pretty much to say and to let out about netball. Ms Seng popped a question if anyone is sick of netball, and well I was the only one who said I was. Then I asked myself again am I sick of netball, or am I sick of my performance. Anyone would agree that I have dropped to the rock bottom, and I just havent been as good as before, and I've been trying really hard, my feets wont move as fast, my brains dont think as fast, my passes arent as accurate, my attitude werent as good. At the start of my netball journey, I was the stats taker, beside the first 2 games when I was actually the shooter, but wasnt any help to the team. I very much know that every player sitting on the bench dream was to play for the team, as much as they say they don't they really want to, and that gives us a reason to treasure a place in the team, and for that you play hard for the team. I knew nuts about how to be a good player until I fought for a ball with sam, with that I fought for a place in the team, never did I know that this brought me pretty far. And ofc the thing that brought me pretty far has not been of very good use nowadays, and have been told to change it, its not easy, its never easy to change your style of play. But ofc what Ms Seng said was true "In your netball journey, you meet coaches, that have different styles of coaching, you might like some, you might not like some, but since she's your coach, if you take it the negative way your going to suffer, so why not take it positively?" TAKE IT POSITIVELY SZELIN. So yes, Im going to go for every single training faithfully (like I've not been-.-) do my best in every single drill however it may kill me, and ofc it would really help having teamates that dont make a fool out of everything, I mean we can have fun but ofc we should know when to laugh and when not to laugh, especially sec1s btw, and yall should reflect on how yall have been training, I know training are tiring but are you even doing everything to your best, I've seen yall in fitness, including those who arent in my group, there is a reason why its called SPRINTS, your tired, who isnt. St.Margs netball is really up to us, its either we make it or we dont, and ofc we do have influence on the future batches as well. People can not believe that we are going to make it, but you all must believe in yourself, yes? I have said it so many times, I think people arent going to believe me anymore, cos I've mentioned so many times we are going to make it but we didnt, but you see if we dont believe we are not going to get any further. AND WITH THAT I LEAVE YOU WITH

"I CAN DO ANYTHING THRU CHRIST WHICH STRENGTHENS ME(:"

PS: I sound like a lifeless person which life revolves around netball, and also someone who is netball crazy, but as long as I feel better its okay. I know im gong to laugh over this the next time I read this again.