I think long profiles are really interesting, but everytime I type something, I just think that its not coming out how I want to, or it just doesnt make sense to me half the time. I guess I can never express myself good enough. Anyway Im Szelin, I dont update here very often cos I don't want to be a bad example (ha-ha I know right) if you know me Im @ dearestblank.lj instead, pictures will be here every now and then.

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Labels: netball

“Why is it so important that you find me?” you ask as we step through the forest.
Sky above.
Ground below.
“Because you will be great. You will change the world. You will define the future and inspire generation upon generation. You are a gift to mankind.” I reply.
“Me?” You laugh.
“Yes.” I say. “You.”

700th.

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thumbthumb suffered cos I baked >:/
I could draw the smiley properly cos it was hurting, haha
its really damn pain, im typing so weirdly cos I can't use my thumb,
even tho it only play a small little role,
chinese paper and oral on monday, the start of MYE.
i carried all my books in a box home today,
talked too much with angang, went home with her and ferine,
I've been going home early, the folks must be pleaseee(:
tmr's a happy day(:

Labels: pictures, school

Have got lots of work today, maths alone could kill.
Thinking of closing my blog, and write in my diary, but decision changed.
still will continue with my dearest diary.
Pretty long day, we had lit in the parade ground how cool, I'd rather have it in class, cos we got the fannn.
Labour day= holiday=lonely day )':
I've really been thinking and reflecting alot, good/bad
kay back to work,
bye earthlings.

/edit
music is really stress reliever,
sing. play my harmonica.

/editedit
EVERYONE PLEASE RMB TO BRING THERMOMETER AND GET IN CLASS BY 7.15

I'll keep it like that till I find a nice skin, a one that I like at least.
school tmr, do I not hate school >:/
it got to be a better week, no more grumpy days, its not good.
but I cant help monday blues, hahaha.
wtv it is I still know how to love(:
I miss youuuuu):

Finished my work.
I'll spend my day just watching Together

You became a part every breath
You became a part of the world,
slowly you become everything,
mean more to me everyday, love you more everyday.

Labels: I wish I could

You're not lost. You are the sky. Your parts move and now, never rust. You are burning wheels and a turning world. You are the wind in silver hair. This is our road. I am a map to you.

/edit
Im damn ):
cos I think I left my shoe bag in the cab, my havainas is inside D:

type. backspace. again and again.
oral was suppose to be today, I wasted my effort going to school, running around looking for lao shi, cos in the end lao shi wasnt even in school.
so left and met gf then off to jesp.
was a good game,
supper with kc and sx, good chat, then home.

The Heart Never Lies- Mcfly
Some people laugh, some people cry
Some people live, some people die
Some people run, right into the fire
Some people hide their every desire

But we are the lovers
If you don't believe me
Then just look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

Some people fight, some people fall
Others pretend they don't care at all
If you wanna fight
I'll stand right beside you
The day that you fall I'll be right behind you
To pick up the pieces
If you don't believe me
Just look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies
Woah
Woah
Another year over, and we're still together
It's not always easy, but I'm here forever
We are the lovers
I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies
Hey
And we are the lovers
I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies
Oh-oh-woah
Woah
Another year over, and we're still together
It's not always easy, but I'm here forever
Yeah we are the lovers, I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies
'cause the heart never lies
Because the heart never lies

Labels: NSL

Labels: Happy Birthday(:

Labels: pictures

Joan's stuck with me today, and its pretty bad,
Im sucha grumpy bitch tonight, every little ting erks me.
I ran my 2.4 yesterday, 11.30min,
okay la, I improved by 11s.
its a pretty long week, Im so glad its the weekend again.
last day of nsl tmr, then I'll be studying and studying and studying.
back to the boring life, without trainings.
I've got chinese oral tmr, Im dont even bother about it,
Bye world.

this year's 14s results are out!
The lucky people are: Danielle Rachella and June
be happeeee, cos your going to have fun, and eventually miss the team when the whole TID programme ends,
Not getting in 17s is still a disappointment but what can I do,
Im having my 2.4 tmr for real, it probably going to be another disappointment, cos I dont think I can run anymore after a break.
Doesnt feel good not having training, obviously feel much fatter, and unhealthy.
I don't feel confident to do anything now beside study.
deprove in stamina, deprove in netball.

Sunday
church then went for event,
I didnt get darker (thank god)
got my new phone C902
Wanted to get E75 but out of stock, and wouldnt wait for a not so pretty phone so just got this.
I was so close to getting prada/diamond phone, but my aunt would be unhappy, so forget it.
Then my contacts.

Monday
dead tired, idk why either.
Joan's house after school, watched corpse bride,
the title looked so scary, but it turned out to be a cartoon,
it was a torture watching it, but aiya not bad la,
Joan was messing around with my hair, I was like a doll la.
Someone started school >:) hahaha

Today
FCD, everybody head to ben and jerry's for a free cone of ice cream, not worth it, its like a friggin long queue, but for the fun of it la,
I didnt go, I miss it every year, but wtv,
went for a run instead, 5 laps and Im tired, how useless.
2.4 is Thursday, aim is 11 min plus, I hope I dont get higher than that.
I've got alot of work to do today, all the last minute work, damn.
PB is not where I should be, but I've got to be in it, as much as I dont want to,-.-
I miss gf, but we're both so busy since she started school,
kay got to rush work, byezx.

Labels: homework, Joan, miss you, phone

Trained the juniors in the morning
Lunch with Ms Seng Janelle Mel,
off to kallang, to mel's, to nsl, back home.
im not in the mood to blog, im so tired.
pictures up, idk when, tmr maybe?
kay bye.

T, cheer upzz, not the end,

Labels: Juniors training, NSL

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This week is not very good, I've been getting so frustrated easily,
ask Joan, I can just shoot something at her for no reason.
I've been eating alot the past 2 days, not good, then I keep getting stomach ache.
I did my 5 stations, and I deprove damn alot, I bet 2.4 is going to be much slower also, cos Im only going to take it next week, and by the time, my stamina is all gone.
on the brighter note, there'll be a trip to melbourne this year,
1st week of july, we'll be missing like a week of school, and we're taking part in a international carnival, and there'll be a loser pool comp. so not that bad, hahaha.
I've got alot of work due tmr, I feel the stress, this is so not fun.
It'll be better week next week.

Its impossible for me to not want to see you,
your like some addiction yknow,
rmb you've got my heart no matter what

/edit
it worries me, speedy recovery love,
I would gladly trade my arms with you if its possible.

Ended with a win,
it was awesome, will I not miss BDIV09):
ride back was crazy, really enjoyable.
Im so tired now, Joan is going to leave me alone tmr, cos of her comp. >:/
Got to collect my PR tmr as well,
I have to continue with me work, post again someday if I get to touch the com during the week.
I am damn annoyed cos I cant finish my work, I can cry to the paper,
Nothing should come down on me

T, never keep anything from her, let her know what she should. and its okay to be mean and times, dont slide back, you've got someone else, rmb that

Labels: game

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Saturday was usual training, last training):
was awesome, everyone was there, played against RJC, killed me.
then celebrated ms chng's birthday, then spent the whole day with gf(:
when i reach home I was already like damn shag, so went to die on the bed,
today I woke up early to go for easter svc,
met slacker at cityhall first, then made our way there,
drama was good, then lunch
hurried off to nevine's party, played block catching,
then iris and I slacked at her house, watched dead silence,
then the rest came up half way, it was really damn scary,
I was so tired of screaming and my muscles being tense. hahaha.
iris sent me and jamie to amk mrt,
then had dinner.
tmr game, nanhua, kick ass!
end with a win(:

Labels: Happy Birthday(:

Today's a happy day(:
I did my lit, joan was suppose to teach me my IH, but she left >:/
there was good company(
went over to cousin's after that, did abit of catch up with daniel,
nothing much, Im quite tired and sleepy.
last training with seniors tmr): 8-11
bye world

Labels: love

I've got 2 late birthday messages to makeeee.

(omg terrible picture, doesnt matter)
Happy birthday captain sarah/salah!
(which animal are you?)
known you for a year or so, you've been a really good captain, pushed us to our limits,
you knew when to have fun and when to be serious, really gna miss your voice in the team,
it wouldnt be fun without people like you to crack up those silly little jokes now and then,
and then laughing at me, cos im laughing at my own jokes-.-
rmb singing down the streets and playing cards in perth,
got to come back to visit kay,
one year older, one year lesser to leaving the school D:

Labels: Happy Birthday(:

My Aunt say I look damn old):

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So yes we're out of top 4,
all netball goals of this year not met, but ssp game was good, esp the last quarter.
but you see I just don't like the fact its over for this year):
last game on monday, it'll be good, it have to be a wow game, like what sarah said, its the las one already.
Commendation is finally o-v-e-r
no more commendation practices, thank god.
it was a torture to my feet today, all the way from 11 to 5.30 or so.
new uniform on monday, I still prefer yknow normal uniform with polka dot collar, hahaha
after that dinner with a bunch of people,
mos burger with trina, and the uncle was so cuteeee, he was quite old, with this pair of adorable specs, he called me "St.Margaret"
his name tag stated 'MS chow' trina say "Chao" he said "Chow" hahaha adorable much, made me laugh like kerayzee. fiddled with katherine dslr (:
Im going to spend tmr doing my work, so over the weekends Im freeeee.
lovee the topshop top:/
kay now pictures,

Hizz, I miss you):

Labels: commendation, game

do or die
it was very heartbreaking,
happy birthday nevine, Im sorry, it wasnt a good birthday from us.
I dont understand ms chng actually, but I'll try.
I didnt do my part, it was screwed up,
sorry.

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I felt so helpless just now, when I heard that the game was postponed.
I will not forgive myself if we dont make it to top 4 cos of that game, so after a bad cry,
Ms Lum called my aunt and the ICA, I manage to change my appointment,
and did I not feel the team's love, hahaha.
watched juniors game, it was damn close, they won by 1.
went to ate after that, then went home.
Im pretty tired no idea why also, today also never play.
the the sun was damn hot.
kay Im going to bed, im physically tired also,
cant want for school tmr actually, omg yuanyuan it was damn funny.
take care of dalida and Ah ben!
have to bring them out soon soon(:

Labels: game

back from nsl,
Im quite tired, yawnzxzx.
today was Mannas vs Sharks and Vipers vs Stingrays
quite boring, then ate with gf and jiwon
then to shaw plaza to meet family, ate without paying, but wtf damn full
home and Im supposedly doing my work, yes I have to finish it, home econs is tmr, dammit.
and this morning my aunt woke me up at 7 to ask if I wanted to go fly kite with them, -.-
i asked how was it just now,
she said the place was beautiful, it was a pity I didnt go with them, but I was really damn tired.
but it was raining at the end and there wasnt any wind, so lucky I didnt go too.
love to hit that place some day,
game tmr with dunman, more of excited this time.
My aim, is to just last the 4 quarters.
& my 6th sense is actually quite good, HAHA

Labels: NSL

-idk how to start-

nauseous.
Didnt have a good afternoon or night,
grumbling and whining away in painnnn.
my stomach keeps churning,
my im hungry, Im taking the risk to eat, even tho I felt horrible after eating garlic bread just now
I died on my way back home,
I hope this is a one day thing,
the adults are sleeping when I dont want them to be sleeping, tsk

Labels: NSL, Training.

I look so black):
im having a bimbo moment: the last time i took a picture was damn long ago.
kay, wtv, I've been practising the handsigns for commendation, if not I confirm kena scolding on that day, cos i keep fumbling through the signs,
Im getting it, but I really can multi task, and im suppose to smile and do the signs and sing,
oh no, die.

Had free period cos Ms Soroma not here,
so much for taking a nap, I ended up talking to Joan,
rehearsal was crazy, I kept perspiring, felt so sticky and gross
went down to junior's game with sam,
they won by 1 and if they put in the last shot it'd be a tie, but nooo, so thank god.
lunch(tea) with mel/janelle/sam
good entertainments(:
took bus to douby, then train, then my aunt said she's going to pick me up
cos my godmum wants to treat us to dinner,
but she eat damn gross-ly
so, didnt eat much, reason why im a little hungry.
training tmr at 7.30
cos I got the ball, pfffft
oh well,

Game today vs st.nicks
Won 30-11 I wasn't even pissed at all la
It was sucha normal slacky play
" C please cool down your play, do not play so rough"
Now that was pissing, freeeeeeak
class had their 2.4 today, they look so tired I want to break my ankle and not
run, fastest was 13 plus haiiii
Sarah wanted to leave me behind at kallang and not bathe, but managed to persuade her
Next round we'll be meeting
Dunman, sports school, nanhua
don't break the winning streak st.Margs
We are going all the way, not impossible
season is ending soon
Then soon sec 4s will be gone, so nostalgic)':
whoever that left her bottle at kallang please claim it from me tmr

miss you damn alot

Labels: game

My poor feet): commendation rehearsal was torturing,
My feet damn pain now, partially cause the court shoes too small
If not it'll probably be fine.
Played a trick on a few people today pretty fun
The trick joan got was not good la.
My shoulders were wet, but cmon I was a good friend
But now joan don't you realize how important she is to you(:
Told you it's just a joke don't believe me, not good to think so much, (look who's talking hahaha)
Game tmr vs st.nicks should be fine.
Next round look pretty tough, but wtv.
I need to familiarize myself with the handsigns to the song I was so lost today
Commendation is going to be over in about a week time
Hang on there!
Night night all(: